No need to hide!

Today, fashion is really about sensuality, how a woman feels on the inside.
In the '80s women used suits with exaggerated shoulders and waists to make a strong impression.
Women are now more comfortable with themselves and their bodies, they no longer feel the need to hide behind their clothes

-Donna Karan-

my apologize to you..

if you ever reads this post, i just want you to know that

i regrets all the things that I've done to you, last night particularly..I'm really sorry for pulling out your patience to the limits, to made you doing all that bad things..I'm apologize, literally..
and for now i'm wondering, is it too much if i asked you to not doing that again to me? i think it's hit me pretty hard..i don't want to feel it again (here's come my egos!)..can i really asked you that?

when i said that I don't know you yet, you know that's not true..i know you very well like you know me..but at that times it's seems so hard to pretends that i know you..i can't believe that I'm finally facing that other side of you..you finally loose your patience..well after all you're just human with feelings.. :)

so let's stop having this always-come-back-and-scracthy arguments between us..we've both just being selfish again..hurting each others..

i do realize that I'm the one with the huge egos and less understanding..not you..and you know that I've tried to make it less every single day..but sometimes I'm losing directions and get lost inside of it..
maybe i need more times, we need more times to work things out between us..i know we can get through this..i still believe on us..

anyway these words from Tori Amos sort of representing what I'm feeling for you..

When the cold of the night has washed away, all I want is to wake in your arms

Ini nih yang kadang suka susah..

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Deep Condolences..

A brief candle, both ends burning
An endless mile, a bus wheel turning
A friend to share the lonesome times
A handshake and a sip of wine
So say it loud and let it ring
We are all a part of everything
The future, present and the past
Fly on proud bird
You're free at last
-Charlie Daniels-

it's a huge lost..rest in peace Mr King of Pop..

sediiiiiihhhh x(

Congratulations!

so I've just finished my Korean exams yesterday and last Monday..i thought the exams will be very hard, and it made me feel anxious..ternyata oh ternyata the exams is not that bad haha I'm doing pretty good i guess..I'm kinda relieved when the exams week is over..because i can straight away go sleazy lazy again haha but you know what, this exams thing is actually made me kinda busy and forget about the boredom inside of me for a while..so it's a nice distraction i must say, thanks to the exams! hehe

oh i want to congrats all my friends who passed their hearing test and finally get the Sarjana Ekonomi title behinds their name..CONGRATULATIONS!
but this means soon enough we will (or have to) kill each other to get a job..it's a war outhere my dear friends..be aware! haha lebay..welcome to the real world mate!! (hope we're not have to kill each other..soon)

If i'm a PC/video games..

if i'm a pc or video games i would be an adventures detective kind of games..games yang sepanjang permainan kerjaannya complete a mission, finding things and resolve some puzzle haha..no particular reason sih, mungkin tanpa gw sadari gw pengen banget jadi detektif haha soalnya gw suka penasaran kalo dapet info-info seru (gossip for example hehe) yang ga lengkap, pasti bakal gw selidiki sampai gw mendapatkan informasi selengkap-lengkapnya haha

ga tau kenapa gw addict banget sama games-games kaya gitu..contohnya games petualangan yang berantem-berantemnya dikit dan lebih ke yang resolve puzzle di setiap missionnya kaya Syberia (visual graphicnya keren banget!), Dreamfall, Bratz (my favourite haha), etc..trus kalo yang nyari-nyari barang kaya Mystery Case Files series, Agatha Christie Death On The Nile, trus Dreamday Honeymoon series, etc..
semakin susah semakin bagus dan semakin gw betah berlama-lama membuang waktu to finished the games! haha

kadang kalo uda stuck dan ga nemu barang yang diminta atau ga bisa resolve the puzzle, gw bisa stressed out (saking capeknya muter otak) dan gemes sendiri haha..this games things should be fun right? i mean the games was created to entertain people, isn't it? kok ya dibikin susah banget banget..walopun akhirnya gw bisa nyelesaiin juga sih..dengan bantuan game cheat tentunya haha padahal ya lebih puas kalo namatinnya ga pake cheat..it would make you feel like you're the most genius person in the world haha lebay deh gw..

sebenernya sih gw suka games berjenis seperti itu karena i'm plain stupid, ga terampil sama sekali main games yang memerlukan banyak fighting actions hehe makanya gw ga suka games yang berantem-berantem gitu..udah gitu ya pasti pencetannya banyak banget, mau ngeluarin jurus aja pencetannya beda-beda..bikin bingung! haha

eh btw postingan gw kali ini penting banget yaaa haha

Tim Burton's Style of Alice in Wonderland

is really get my attention successfully! Maybe I'm not a die hard fans of Tim Burton, buuuut this "darker" (as always we can see on every Tim Burton's movies i guess) version of Alice in Wonderland is a MUST WATCH! and it will be a 3D kind of movies..woooowww! rumours said that the movie is a sequel in some ways..curiosity's grows inside me x)

Anyway here are some of the actors/actress who take role in the movie, Johnny Depp (not surprised) as The Mad Hatter, Helena Bonham Carter (even more not surprised) as The Red Queen, Anne Hathaway (surprise!) as the White Queen, Matt Lucas as Tweedledee and Tweedledum, Mia Wasikowska (19 years old Aussie actress, surprise!) as Alice and Michael Sheen as The White Rabbit (I'm really curious about this future-rabbit look like)..
the movie will hit theaters on March 5th, 2010..haaa what a long waiting..

well for now i must hold back my curiosity and satisfied only with these first photo that has been released by Walt Disney Pictures..

left to right : Mad Hatter, Red Queen and White Queen

Tweedledee and Tweedledum

if your curiosity's getting wild (just like me hehe) about how will the wonderland look like, you can see the first look of Tim Burton's "weird" (quoting from USA Today) wonderland here

be dazzled! kisskiss!

boredom oh boredom

i think i really need to do something different..something new..pronto! otherwise I'm going crazy or dead in no time..seriously! this time reading a book, wild surfing on the net, go shopping and other stuff that i like, doesn't works! at all! it's really frustrating x(

i know i've muttering this same old stuff recently..it's all because of this f boredom wont go away! please leave me alone, I'm begging you..
(i think I'm already crazy haaaa)

Fidelity..

Regina Spektor - Fidelity

I never loved nobody fully
Always one foot on the ground
And by protecting my heart truly
I got lost in the sounds
I hear in my mind all these voices
I hear in my mind all these words
I hear in my mind all this music
And it breaks my heart
It breaks my heart
And suppose I never met you
Suppose we never fell in love
Suppose I never ever let you kiss me so sweet and so soft
Suppose I never ever saw you
Suppose we never ever called
Suppose I kept on singing love songs just to break my own fall
Just to break my fall
Break my fall
All my friends say that of course its gonna get better
Gonna get better
Better better better better
I hear in my mind all of these voices
I hear in my mind all of these words
I hear in my mind all of this music
Breaks my heart

ih ih ih i can upload video again! yaaiiyyy norak deh gw haha
btw the black and white theme in the video is quite unique and i love Regina's shoes at the beginning of the video!
kisskiss <3

Scowls..

that's exactly what you can found on my face if you meet me throughout this day..i don't know why I'm acting very unlikely, super annoying..being such pain in people ass or my boyfriend's ass i should say hehe..my periods is through yesterday but maybe the PMS effects stay longer..giving good opportunity for the bad mood to come, wrecking my whole senses..and that bad mood really use this opportunity very well..I'm on my lowest mood today..i became very sensitive and grumble angrily..all day! x(

I'm thanking my boyfriend for his patience throughout this day..smooches!

anyway this cupcakes saved my day a bit..well, who can resist the temptation of cute little cakes, even when you're in extremely bad mood..

what i've got from Jak & Jil Blog..

these tees are from Christopher Kane's collections..to see all the prints just click Luisaviaroma..

i think the print is kinda scary..with all the opened mouth, sharps teeth and the animal's face expressions thing..why don't he used something more cute? haha
but after all, fashion's always have their own charm and uniqueness..no matter how weird or scary it's turns out in the end..hahaha
any thoughts? =)

something refreshing..

couple days ago I've this lovely lunch with my brother..the day before we go to the groceries to buy all the food ingredients..and turns out that we're not a smart shopper type for sure..because we kinda put everything that we want in the trolley even the not necessary goods haha
anyway the lunch is my brother's idea actually..since we don't have any special reasons or occasions to celebrate..it's simply just because he want to cook something..well with little help from mamio off course..honestly, my brother is 10 times better than me at kitchen haha I'm not really good at cooking and stuff even though my mother is having these super cooking skills..isn't it ironic? i know i know what a shame..but what can i do? nothing haha maybe I'll be good at cooking someday when I've settled with my future husband to be..let's hope so hihihi

i'll give you the pictures of our menus below..haaaa suddenly i feel soooo hungry..is not wise to post something related to foods in the middle of the night or should i said morning people! believe me (i'm the living proof) is not wise! x)
so anyway these are the pictures..

pasta with melting cheese on top..yummy!


strawberry with chocolate topping made by me =)


the fruit punch..sooo freshening!

this simple activities really LIGHTEN UP my day a little..cause I've been extremely boring with my life lately..no interesting things to do..just the same old stuff from day to day..
so this is a nice one for me..kisskiss!!

Disney Dream Potrait Series

i want to share these beautiful pictures shoot by Annie Leibovitz for Disney..it's a remake of Disney's movies characters featuring celebrities as the characters..
I'll start from the picture that i heart the most..enjoy!

Where the Magic Begins
Julie Andrews as Blue Fairy from Pinocchio and Abigail Breslin as Fira from Disney Fairies


Where You Never Have to Grow Up
Gisele Bundchen as Wendy, Mikhail Baryshnikov as Peter Pan and Tina Fey as Tinker Bell

Where another world is just a wish away
Julianne Moore as Ariel and Michael Phelps in the foreground of the frame


Where Dreams Run Free
Jessica Biel as Pocahontas

Where Wonderland is your destiny
Beyonce as Alice in Wonderland, Oliver Platt as Mad Hatter and Lyle Lovett as March Hare


Where every Cinderella story comes true
Scarlett Johansson as Cinderella


Where You’re the Fairest of Them All
Rachel Weisz as Snow White


Where a Whole New World Awaits
Whoopy Goldberg as Gennie from Aladdin


Where imagination saves the day
David Beckham as Prince Phillip from Sleeping Beauty


Where You’re Always King of the Court
Roger Federer as King Arthur


Where a Whole New World Awaits
Jlo as Princess Jasmine and Marc Anthony as Aladdin

i loved Annie Leibovitz's works so much and I'll post another pictures from her soon..especially the Marie Antoinette's shoot for Vogue Covers..so until next time then..tons of kisses!


PS..

well, i think Jlo and Marc Anthony is not really fits with the shoot..no offense but they are just too old..we need some refreshing middle age or young celebrities that will make Princess Jasmine and Aladdin happy haha just a thought =)

my long wishes..

i wanna go diving!! this is one of the things that i must do before i die haha

it's always stay in my head since i'm in my first year as a college student..i really want to join some diving club and learn about the whole diving things..but i don't know why i just can't make it until now..my friends know how jealous i am because i can't go diving with them when we on vacation in Bali..it's all because i have my periods in very wrong times, shitty! i'm still regret it until now and every time i see their underwater pictures with the fish swimming and the coral as background the jealousy burst again haha

one of my aunt and my cousin already have the diving license actually..my aunt is a researcher of marine biota for LIPI..so obviously she have to be able to dive..while his son, my cousin, is taking Marine Science as his major and he works for her mom as a freelance underwater photographer if i'm not mistaken..i've discussed about where i can learn and join some diving club with them..they give me some information..and the opportunity is already there standing very close to me..but then again i can't find the right time to do it because of one and many things back then..so i must withhold the wish for myself until now..tremendously lamentable =(

you know what i really want to do this diving things in the near future..but there's this one consideration..which is my dad's permission..if i asked my dad, will he allow me to do it? i really don't have the courage to asked that since i'm not in a good bargaining positions right now..i think i just need to test my luck whenever the chance appears haha..wish me..
kisskiss

amazingly beautiful!i want to see it with my own eyes

what i'm trying to be..

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i'm still on my way to be that person =)

Hi there..

안녕하세요, 어떻게 지내세요?

I've been (acting) very busy recently haha..that's explain why i'm not posting something new lately..excuses haha so here's some update from me..

i'll have a little test for my korean lessons tomorrow..and i'm kinda scared because i dont know what is the type of the questions..is it gonna be a multiple choice or an essay or both..is it gonna be a conversation and listening test too or not..i really dont have any idea..it makes me nervous to think of that.. i must be well prepared i guess..that's mean a lot of practice to do..time to study hard! teehee
i'm currently addicted by Koreans reality show haha it's help my lessons and it's really funny so this is a nice thing to do i shall say..

hmm what's else..let see..oh i'm managed to go swimming regularly..once in a week..every saturday morning or sunday morning..i do sport again! finally..cause i'm not doing that like forever haha..must keep the schedule tight from now on..

i'm planning to make some summer dress..i already have the fabrics, the dressmaker and a few designs to choose..i'm hoping to meet with the dressmaker and tell her what i want in the next week =)

i think that's all..not really interesting updates huh? haha

안녕! (^o^)/

ada apa deh?

kayanya slogan "pembeli adalah raja" uda ga berlaku lagi deh..especially here in Indonesia..gw pernah nih ya ke suatu toko..dari mulai masuk trus gw liat-liat smp keluar toko itu gw diikutin terus dan diliatin sm mas-mas SPGnya (suka kali ya sm gw haha)..mending ramah gitu ya, ini ngeliatinnya kya i'm gonna steal something gitu..dan gw tipe orang yg paling males banget diginiin..temen gw juga pernah cerita waktu itu dia lagi ngeliat lego di salah satu toko mainan terkemuka (halah haha) eh tiba-tiba SPGnya berdiri aja gitu di depan dia..ngehalangin etalasenya..jadi posisinya tuh temen gw-SPG ga tau diri-etalase tmp Legonya dipajang..trus temen gw geser ke samping kan biar ga kehalangan..eh SPGnya ikutan geser aja dong..tetep ngalangin pandangan temen gw ke etalasenya..dan si SPG itu beneran do nothing, cuma berdiri diem ga jelas mau ngapain sambil ngeliatin temen gw..yah temen gw emang mau liat-liat doang sih tapiiiii tetep aja kan ga usa segitunya..sumpah nyebelin bgt..
emang sih mungkin mereka kya gitu because it is the standard procedure..peraturan dr manajemen perusahaannya..bukan salah mereka juga sih..mungkin maksudnya membantu konsumen tapi kok gw malah ngerasa kaya dicurigain..atau gw sm temen gw kebetulan ga masuk ke target market mereka makanya digituin haha..yang jelas klo gw sih bisa batal beli sesuatu dari toko klo SPGnya uda mulai rese ngikutin terus..uda keburu males duluan..haha

belum lagi kasus malpraktek yg bikin gw makin yakin pembeli adalah raja uda ga berlaku lagi..kasus malpraktek yg lagi heboh sekarang..kasusnya Prita Mulyani vs sebuah RS Internasional..jadi si ibu prita ini sempet dipenjara selama 3 minggu, sekarang dia uda bebas dr penjara tp masih jd tahanan kota.. gara-garanya dia curhat lewat email ke temennya dan ngirim surat ke suara pembaca about her dissapointed toward the hospital..yg akhirnya menyebar luas di dunia maya terus dia jd digugat mencemarkan nama baik..makanya gw ga nulis nama RSnya ntar gw dipenjara lagi hehe..nah dia digugat (kasus perdata) sm salah satu dokter yg inisialnya disebut di surat itu..di pengadilan perdata dia kalah trus ngajuin naik banding..terus ya apesnya lagi bu prita ini masih harus ngadepin pengadilan pidana dan dijerat Pasal 27 Undang-Undang nomor 11 tahun 2008 tentang Informasi dan Transaksi Elektronik yg hukumannya maksimal 6 tahun penjara atau denda Rp 1 miliar..gila ga tuh? orang yg jadi korban dan harusnya dibela malah terancam dipenjara..gw heran deh kok bisa-bisanya ya dokter berbuat kya gitu, padahal jelas-jelas profesinya menolong orang yang sakit..eh ini sebenernya sakitnya biasa aja malah dibikin tambah parah..emang sih ga semua dokter kaya gitu tapi tetep aja bikin ngeri..
fortunately my grandpa is a doctor dan lumayan banyak sodara gw yg dokter jadi at least gw sm keluarga gw bisa jaga-jaga lah dari dokter-dokter yg ga bener..
dan ternyata ya dari yg gw baca di koran, korban malpraktek kaya bu prita gini tuh jarang banget yg menang di pengadilan..klo ga salah less than 1% korban malpraktek menang di pengadilan..ironis abis..

sebenernya UU Perlindungan Konsumen berlaku ga sih? kok kya ga ngaruh gitu in real situation..soalnya menurut gw sekarang banyak perusahaan atau institusi yg ga terlalu peduli sm yg namanya good customer service..padahal kan mereka bergantung sm konsumen..coba klo ga ada yg mau beli barang/jasa mereka..pasti bangkrut kan tuh..haha

life is about mutualism after all..so give little respect to your customer, would you? is not that hard to be done, right?

cheers (^o^)/

One and Two

you and i are one and two
if you kill we were both torn in two
you and i are one and two
both our hearts beat as one, dear and you
but is it okay..is it okay if i run away
it is okay when your love has faded away
if i hold you tight and never let go
if i hold you tight and never let show
the way i feel all around me
i know it's you

you and i are hopeless too
if i give you all my heart could and i'm true
all my life i waited for and there's nothing left
no there's no-one else to live for any more
but is it okay..is it okay
if i..i can escape your faith
will need just one more longer day

if i hold you tight and never let go
if i hold you tight and never let show
the way i feel deep inside of me
i swear it's you

if i hold you tight and never let go
if i hold you in my arms forever
all around me
and i swear it's you

i'm considering

this place as the place for my future wedding party to be haha it's called La Collina..an italian restaurant in Karawang..

i read some reviews about this place..it's said that this place have a beautiful scenery..
buuuuut there's one problem..this beautiful place is actually reside inside the San Diego Hills-Memorial Park and Funeral Homes..it's not a good idea to celebrate wedding in such kind of place, isn't it? hahaha..but who will knows the future? =)
i'll considering this place anyway and put it on my list hoho

oh i'm planned to visit the restaurant in the near future..and maybe i'll experience some romantic dinner there..haha

Complaining

time is moving so fast! it's June already and i'm still don't have a job..shitty!
so i've become jobless for about 4 month now after my graduation day haaahh..is that a long time? maybe it's for some of you who are being very lucky to get a job directly after you finished your study or even when you still become a college student..

everyday i dealt with the pressures from my parents, especially from my dad..he really wants me to get a job as soon as possible..yeah right everyone wants that too including me..
but don't you know that it's really hard to get a good job? with all the high qualifications from the companies and so many people with kicked ass brain and talents out there tried to get the same job..yes it's really difficult for sure..

for my parents, i wanna asked for you to give more understanding on my situations at this moment..please put the pressures down a little..you know i'm not gonna give up on that whole getting a jobs thing..i'll try harder i can assure you that..maybe this is just not my time to get a job, belum rejeki people's said..
i'll have a job in the right time at the right moment..Insya Allah..

haaaa i start this new month by complaining about my joblessness..i'm so pathetic..darn! haha