nice..lol

Mario Lavandeira said

"I don’t care if you don’t like me..
I just care if you still read my Web site"

i think..

my father will allow me to take the korean course..yippyyy..
but i have to make it sure once again..wish me will you?
kiss kiss (>o<)

sentimental heart

currently listening to she and him song..

Cried all night 'til there was nothin' more
What use am I as a heap on the floor?
Heaving devotion but it's just no good
taking it hard just like you knew I would

O-o-old habits die hard when you got,
when you got a sentimental heart
Piece of the puzzle, you're my missing part
Oh what can you do with a sentimental heart?

i'm being (too much) sentimental..

wake up with swollen eyes is definitely not my option to start a day..seems like tears is my bestfriend right now..i dont know what should i do to prevent it..
i hate when i become a crybaby..sentimental..overly emotional..
i really hate it!! haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

YOU..if you ever read this post..i just want you to know that..
i know you did that accidentally..not in purpose..
and i do realize that it's not all your fault..but for me blaming you is the easiest way to do right now..you can call me selfish..always make a fuss about little things..exaggerate it..not understand you..can't see your sincerity..call me whatever you like..i wont mad at you..
this is what i feel for you right now..and
i'm really sorry for that..i really do

i know that

i'm being selfish again..i know it's bad..
i'm really sorry..never mean to do that..
i just can't help it..

gossip gossip haha

everyone is talking about manohara pinot these days..i just knew it from the infotainment haha
wondering what really happens to her..rumours said that she's got a sexual abuse from her husband..the prince of Kelantan Malaysia..
and now she's found missing..
and there's some hars talking out there saying that she and her mother is a gold digger..a con artist..is that true? i would never know and not interested to find the answer..i'm too bussy with my life..haha *yeah right, but you have time to write this post..haha shitty!*
but if it's true shame on her and her mother then..
anjrit gw jadi ikutan gossip gini haha

regardless what happens to her..manohara pinot is another lucky bitch for sure..haha
she's pretty and tall and have a good body..what a gift haha
at her age now which is nearly 17..she's got all the women in the world craving for..name it the irresistible Christian louboutin shoes, the famous hermes birkin bags, the sophisticated roberto cavalli dresses and many others..
makes you wanna yell at her huh? haha

enough trashing!

hope oh hope

i just knew that adinda bakrie is hiring preston bailey for her wedding..
what a lucky bitch! haha *never intend to be harsh*
yeah with all the money that her families earned..she's surely will get what her want..darn!
i really envy her for this preston bailey thing..haha

some people are just being so lucky to have all the things that they want without many effort to pursue it..crap!

liat aja gw pasti juga bisa..i will hire preston bailey for my wedding and every single pennies will come from my own purse!! haha
i'm gonna work very hard and pursue all my dreams!! *amin*

sorry i'm trashing again..haha

monsters vs aliens

i just got back from the theater..and want to tell you something important..
(berlebihan haha)

monsters vs aliens..have you watched this movie? it's an animation movie made by dreamworks..*at first i think it was Pixar*

if your answer is yes..i think you also HAVE TO watch that movie in 3D..seriously!! it's veeeerrrrryyyyyy good! 10 thumbs up!!
and for those people that have not watched this movie yet, i suggest to watch it in 3D!! you wont regret it..for sure!
the 3D effects is outstanding!! very impressive i must say..keren abis!
i feel like i'm getting involved in every scenes.. (that's exactly why they used 3D effects, norak bgt gw haha)..taking a "quiet" role in the movie..
this is my first time ever watching a 3D movie again..since Remi,the 3D cartoon played on tv back then when i was younger..it's been like forever..poor me..haha
oh ya the 3D glasses is much better now..not made by paper as the frame and the blue-and-red film as the lens anymore..
the glasses looks like a rayban wayfarer haha soooo stylishimo..
maybe it will be the next trend, who knows? haha
the movie itself is very highlarious..LoL makes me laugh all the time..very entertaining! it's a-must-see kind of movie even if you do not watched it in 3D..
i don't regret the not-very-cheap cost that i have to pay to watch that movie in 3D..it's worth to paid! haha

i think moral of the story from the movie are..
life is all about making a decision and only you who knows the best for you..just believe yourself and make the decision..hopefully you wont regret it..
(ga seserius itu juga c..haha)

anyway if you have some free time..go watched the movie and feel the experience..haha


P.S. i think there's too much very and exclamation mark in this post..lol

letter to God

dear Almighty God..
please show me the best pace to walk through this life..my life..
please easier my pathway to get the fortune with Your blessing and generosity..
give me the strength and let me have the patience to confront everything that get on my way..so i can make my life meaningful without any remorse behind..
and please protect me and all the people that i love..

Amen

happy happy

recently on my ym..

dita : kendi he he he
kenDiiii: heeiii...
dita : happy earth day!!
kenDiii : yup...happy earth day to u..happy earth day..happy earth day..happy earth day to you..haha
dita : hahahha

stupid huh? haha

anyway..Happy Earth Day people!!
let's do something real for our home!!

i will..

no blinding light or tunnels, to gaze, of white
just our hands clasped so tight
waiting for the hint of a spark

if heaven and hell decide that they both are satisfied
illuminate the nose on their vacancy signs
if there's no one beside you when your soul embarks
then i'll follow you into the dark

death cab for cutie-i'll follow you into the dark

advice from my father

i just having some chit chat with my father..we usually do this every time he got home from works..and guess what he said to me..
he told me that i must gain some weight..literally! haha while i'm still not doing anything aka jobless..
seriously, am i that skinny? i really dont have any idea..
but it seems pretty hard for me to gain some weight..hah!
oh ya he's also told me to sleep early..another difficult things to do in my case haha

tumben2an bgt bokap gw ngomong gitu..what happen aya naon ya?

Bon appetite

i eat a lot lately..
everytime i want to eat..i'm kinda like double sized the portion..
and like that isn't enough..i still can eat some dessert..
i have a little space for that in my stomach haha
what a greedy me..

it doesn't make sense if i eat a lot you know..
cause if you look out my body you'll never gonna believe it haha
the matter is i have this small-size kind of body and i'm very skinny according to my friends opinion..
maybe i have some giant worms or dragon inside my stomach haha

my bf said that i've turn into little monster..*did i? haha
but the big monster is still him!! i think i eat a lot because of him..
he has been infecting me with his large appetite on foods..
if i'm getting fat..i'll blame him then..haha

Random!

i want to take a korean language course but my dad refused it..aaarrrgggggggghhhhhhhhh
he said that i should take an english course instead of korean course..english is more important..
yeah i know that..but i want to continued my korean course..
i just want to have some specialization that differs me from other person..i think it will give me some benefit..even if i'm not working in a korean companies..who knows someday my skill will be worthful..or someday i get the chance to go to Korea (amin hope so..)
pleaseeee dad allow me to take the korean course..pleaaaasssssssseeeeeeeeeee..
english can wait..or i'll take it both if i needed to haha

recently i've been thinking..are we, women, acts so stupid if related to love?
i see some of my friends being hurt by their boyfriend and they just like can't do anything about it except complaining complaining and complaining..
being hurt again..again..and again..
i know broken heart will give you a pain that will remarks on you like forever..but dont you want to move on? to get through it and feel happy again? or dont you want to show your ex that 'i'm doing fine without you' and make him/her regrets for what they done to you?
i think that's will i do if i'm the one who been hurt..*amit2 jgn smp deh*
i know it's not that easy..but are you at least give it a try?
don't ever thinking that you can't get through it..we women are strong in our own way..
if you have the will then you can get through it..help yourself wont you?
maybe there'll be a lot of tears..a lot of pains..a lot of memories to put aside..a lot of everything!
and maybe just maybe between all that body-and-mind-tortured things you will find yourself smiling again..
to all my friends that i care so much..please start helping yourself..cause i know you don't give a damn about what i said..so help yourself will you?

being jobless is sucks! haha
honestly that is what i feel lately..it's so difficult to get a job..especially on this recession time..
i always thinking that i'll get it as soon as i graduated..which is 2 months after my graduation day..and now it's been 2 months after i graduated..but here i am..jobless!!
i finished my study smoothly without any necessary inhibitions..right on the time..
i think that will do the same thing for me to get a job..but the fact not always turns out to what i wanted or wish for..
i'm being soo naive hahahaha
yah just be patient i know God have a good plan for me somehow..
i do have some job interviews by the way..wish me a good luck will you? ;p

i want to try this fish spa therapy..i'll do it as soon as possible..

images courtesy of Kenko reflexiology and fish spa

it's using the Garra Ruffa fish from Turki..once you put your foot on the pool..the fish will approached your foot and start eating your dead skin cells..
it feels like being tickled at first..but after that you'll enjoy it hahaha
i have tried it once in seaworld..it's called holoquarium..but you put your hands there instead of your foot..but i heard they already have the pool for the foot too..called fish dip if i'm not mistaken..

i want to go on vacations..go to far far far away place..
where i can get fresh air..good scenery..delicious foods..nice peoples..and good place to shop haha

i almost forget..i currently listening to vierra's album - My First Love..haha and it sounds great for sure..

hah what else? i think enough for today..
i must stop it and go to sleep now..

i'm craving this

while i'm doing this random browsing today..
i found this chloe's shoes..and craving for it..


images courtesy of thecherryblossomgirl.com

love the design..love the colors combination..love the heels..love the materials..love the looks!
i have a crush on this shoes! haha

i thought i'll looks stunning on those shoes..haha
it'll perfectly wrap my feet..and make it looks so deadly gorgeous..
and everyone will be jealous with my looks hahaha
it's sooo sophisticated..
i want it..i want it..

eat that people!! Susan Boyle is coming..

i'm youtubing today..and i found susan boyle's video when she performed on Britains got talent..
i've read some news about her before, but it's not getting my attention at all..
until i see the video..so i just knew for about a second ago that she's really really really have a beaaaaauuuuutiiiiffffuuuuulllll voice..seriously!
even simon cowell got mesmerized!!
another great talent..(i'm being jealous again *sigh*)
i'm having goosebumps when i hear her voice..it's so amaaaazzziiiinnnngggg..
and suddenly my tears falling..i don't know why..i just feel like crying..
i even don't realize it..it just falling..hahaha

when she's walking to the stage, the audiences like what the hell are you doing here? and laughing at her because of her appearances..a 47 years old not-so-good-looking-and-fat women..never been kissed and never been married..
but she's got the confidence..not getting nervous or annoyed at all..
and when she's start singing..everyone just like open their mouth..gasping
yeah you go susan, shut their mouth!! haha

i love Amanda Holden's (the other judges) comment after the performance..
"i'm so thrilled because i know that everybody was against you..i honestly think that we are all being very cynical and it must be the biggest wake up call, ever! and i just want to say that is complete privileges listening to that.."

i completely agree with you amanda!
sometimes we are being very cynical about other people that different from what we called the normal standard and often ended up underestimating them..
i admitted sometimes i do judge people from their appearances..
the hair, the outfit, the shoes even the bags hahaha
i think this is the warning for stop being too cynical about everything..
so i'll let myself try to reduced it as much as i can until i can stop it completely ;p
just like the old says don't judge a book by it's cover..
and one more thing to go..God is very fair to us..
Subhanallah..


anyway this is the video..it's very stunning!! check it..



P.S.
i'm still having the goosebumps everytime i hear her voice..haha
don't forget to check the judges face too ;p
aaahhh i'm gonna crrryyyyy..

hungry

here i am at my home..alone
and i'm sooooooooo hungry..
please feed me..

i need to learn how to cook as soon as possible!!!

i want to write something but i just dont know what to write..haha
jdnya ga jelas gini..nyampah abis

B + PB = My wedding!!

recently i've been daydreaming again about what will my wedding party looks like..haha
especially about the dress and the concepts of the party

i really really want to wear something from BIYAN as my wedding dress..
and i'm dying to make it real..i'm obsessed with it!!
even if it will cost me a lot..i take that chances and never ever gonna regret it!
i really adore biyan dresses for a long time..and always dreams that someday i'll hang those dresses in my closet's haha
biyan dresses are just beautiful and unique..it will make you looks like a fairy..pretty and untouchable..it's so classy!
most of women would like to have their 'kebaya' designed by anna avantie..
but i just go for Biyan..i want biyan designs my 'kebaya'..haha
anna avantie design is good, really good actually..i also adore her works..
but i dont know why i just want something from biyan..it's bring some weird satisfactions inside of me..haha

i want a garden party as my wedding concepts..and there's no stage..
me and my-future-husband will just walk around to the guests until we get tired haha
there will be some bands playing the musics..
i just want to invite people that are close to us..so it will be more private..but it seems impossible..hehe
i'm not gonna tell the details here..cause it'll take all night long to write haha

and to make it perfect i want Preston Bailey decorating my wedding party!!
this is really a wish upon a star for sure..haha
since Mr Bailey is the world preeminent event designer..his celebrity clients including oprah winfrey (for her bday blast), donald trump, catherine zeta-jones and many more..
i wish i have a lot of money so i can hire Mr Bailey haha
oh you can click his name..i already put a link to his website so you can see his works..
it's really amazing and beautiful..
he use different kinds of flowers and plants for his works
it's just stunning..to see the results of his works..it's beyond my imagination
what a talent! *yes i'm being jealous haha

if i see his masterpiece i always ended up with my mouth open refuse to close *gasping haha*..and the only words that came out is Oh my gosh..really hypnotizing..and you'll feel like you being brought into other world..
it's just sooooooooooooo gorgeooouuuuuuuuuuusssssssss!!!


in fact, Biyan and Preston Bailey has worked together..for biyan's fashion show at dharmawangsa hotel..what a great teams!

i definitely want them both at my wedding!! haha

this is a picture of Mr Bailey works for Biyan's fashion show-Inspiration, back then on April, 2008

P.S.
look out that beautiful covered-with-flowers chandeliers and that amazing in colors flower bouquets
i really adore it..*gasp*
this is the link if you want to read the review ;p
http://www.thejakartapost.com/news/2008/05/04/biyan-and-bailey-join-fashion-forces.html

aarrrggghhh

i should sleep right now..
but my eyes refused to close..
my brain wont stop thinking..
i dont feel tired..

i really have to sleep..
i need to sleep!!
arrrrggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

tied the knot

i just finished reading a new book by clara ng today..it's called two for tea..
nice book btw..you should read it..

it's really open my eyes in a good way..made me think about the other side of marriage..the bad side..it's about domestic violence..
that could happens to anyone..
but honestly most people don't even think that this could happens to them..including me..
all this time maybe we think we've know everything about our partner..
but sometimes it just doesn't ended like we wish for..

my mother said to me that there's always a "surprise" after someone got married..
you'll find something that really new about your partner..something you don't see before..
as you will live 24 hours together..so it makes sense..haha
even if you have a long-term-full-of-happy-and-sad-relationship before you finally tied the knot and you think you knows everything about your partner..it doesn't make a difference..the surprise thing is always there..waiting to release..
and that surprise can become your nightmare (like those happens to sassy the main character on the book) or simply just make you smile and falling in love again and again..
i prefer the last one hahaha *i see you agree with me ;p
and if the bad ones get you..i believe that people who really care for you will be there..right next to you..supporting and reminding that you deserve to be happy!
just open your heart to them..and let them save you..
family and true friends are always stick together! i always believing it..

i don't mean to become so cynical or pessimistic about marriage..
i do believe in happily ever after kind of marriage..and surely want to have one ;p
so i think what i'm gonna say is just get to know your partner well before you've decided to go to the next step..use all of your senses..

i wish us a very good luck in life..living with happiness and joys!
ciao (^o^)

oh i almost forget..this is the cover of the book..

HOT

it's really really hot today..i got sweats all day..
it makes my body sticky! yuck..

btw..i spent another quality time with my best friend today..
we haven't seeing each other for quite long time..
so we decided to get a girls talk with some chocolate and cappuccino
the wheater seems affect us somehow..cause we ended up talking a very HOT topics also..literally haha
sorry i can't share it with you..it's too risky..
she will kill me if i told you *exaggerates*
i want to keep it secrets though ;p


seriously, today is really hot like hell!!
(>_<)

i.h.u

i dont know exactly how i supposed to feel at this moment..
maybe i dont have the rights to get mad at you..or blaming you..
it's just little things for you..not important!

but you know how i feel for you?
yes..i'm angry and peevish at you
yes, i get angry easily
yes, i'm childish
whatever..i dont care!!

and now i'm thanking you for ruined my day!
you've successfully turns my mood into a really bad mood
congratulations!!

hairdo yeah!

i got a new hair!
finally i cut it..after i let it grow mussy..
my friends also protested me..told me that i looks like a granny if my hair's too long..haha
i dont want to cut my hair too short..cause i'm bored with the same short-hair-look that i got everytime i cut my hair short..

and voila..it turns out that my new hairdo made me looks like dora or jaiko haha
i feel young again! ;p


anyway, this is my pic with my new hairdo ;p

trash

lately i realize that i always do this blogging things in the middle of the night..haha
i dont know why..it's simply happens..
i think this is the normal hours for me..cause i hardly go to sleep before 12.00 am
what a bad habits..i know
it was started since i'm in college..with all the chit-chat and homework things that always keep me busy everyday..haha
i prefer to do all my tasks and papers at night..middle of the night in fact
i dont know why but if i do all that shit things in the morning or afternoon it's just don't go well..my brain refused to works..haha *excuses ;p

i really want to change that for real..
i'm on my way to do that..
but like people say..it's much easier to said than done for hahaha
darn!

i'm doing it again now..in the middle of the night talking trash.. ;p

my daily dose

I'm going out with my friends recently..it was fun and entertaining..haha
we haven't seen each other since the graduation day i guess..well some of them actually..

i always love the kind of feeling when i'm with them..

it's like i can do anything even a very stupid things in the world and their reaction are only laughing on me and teasing me again and again..aib seumur hidup haha
but i don't mind it at all..it's feels very comforting in a weird way

i knew they really care for me..as much as i care for them..although they can be so annoying sometimes..but life isn't complete without annoying friends, isn't it? haha

i love you all..i really do
kiss kiss

my daily dose

enjoy it loser!

i really hate people who taking an advantage on other people works..
and one of my friend just did that! ironic huh..
is not my close friend indeed..but still she get me pissed off since this related to the project that i took parts in it..in other words is include my work too!!

when my friends (the other members of the teams) and i got busied back then..she's do nothing! not even like giving care about this project (she is the chairman fyi)..all that she do is only talking in bossy tone ..commanding (without doing nothing) and asking us to understand her because she must facing the dead-or-alive kind of exams..(and many many reasons after that)

we do understand her position back then..but after her exam finished things not getting better..she's still do nothing..*i've told you earlier she used many reasons..

now when finally we get the funds from our sponsors..she's acting busy..
like she's the one who made the works..
saying we must do that first..do this..changing everything as she like..
perintah sana perintah sini..maksudnya apa siiihhhhh??
kemana aja loe waktu kita lg ribet2 dulu??
stop being so important!!

i'm done with all of this..do as you pleased..
i dont give a damn care anymore..whatever!!

enjoy the works that doesn't belong to you..
everyone knows that this is not your works..
so just enjoy it loser!
while you can..

Floods + Traffic jam = Mood crusher!

when i got home today..there's a long line of cars at the highway exit gate..
i thought it's only the usual traffic jam..it's 5 pm and it's the time people going home from their offices..
at the first we still chit-chatting..gossiping..sing a long..commenting all that we see haha..jocking..enthusiasticly = Good mood

then we all get into our nerves..
it's stuck! nothing happens..the car only go forward inch by inch..
the chit-chat turns to profanity..the good mood turns to impatience..
everyone is tired..

after about 1 hour we finally can get out from that fucking exit gate! *doesn't mean to be harsh..i'm just losing my mood ;p
and thanks to the floods that caused the traffic jam!
it's been raining all day..making floods everywhere..
floods surroundings the way to my home..
my home it's like an island in the middle of the sea..haha

this is a very backbreaker day..hufffhhh

distraction

i'm in the need of distractions!!

i must do something..anything new, anything useful or else otherwise I'll be insane
i'm stressed out!! and jobless!!

i need to read a book, sing a song, meet my friends, walking around or even go shopping..anything..i really need something to do

go shopping wouldn't works i guess since i've to do some savings..shit!
so i think i'm gonna read as much as i can until i get bored..
then i'll think about another kind of distraction that can keep me busy..

oh i must prepare for my toefl test too..that will keep me busy for a while
thx God..

the lyrics

the thoughts that give me the creeps
I woke up tired and feeling old,
and I wondered why my bed was cold
and I thought could you have gone ?
and if so where and how long ?
and why would I let you go ?
why would i ever let you go ?
oh sometimes I tell my heart yes is no
like sometimes I wake up feeling old and all alone
oh no what if I never knew your name
oh my god, the thought's insane
what if your love is not the same
as it seems inside my brain
what if your not really in my sheets
oh just the thought gives me the creeps...
I woke up young in lovers love
and I felt my love, and I felt your touch
and my skin it wondered how
yeah my skin it wondered how
could you be touching me right now
when in my sleep you can't be found
oh somehow by something has carried our love through the years
and somehow i still carry on but in my fears...
oh what if I never knew your name
oh my god, the thought's insane
what if your love is not the same
as it seems inside my brain
what if your not really in my sheets
oh just the thought gives me the creeps...

oh no what if I never knew your name
oh my god, the thought's insane
what if your love is not the same
as it seems inside my brain
what if your not really in my sheets
oh just the thought gives me the creeps...
oh no just the thought gives me the creeps
oh no just the thought gives me the creeps



i want forrest sing this song in front of me..live!! hahahaha

the thoughts that give me the creeps

recently I've been listening to not-so-new hellogoodbye song..the thoughts that give me the creeps..
I'm wondering what's mine..and it's hard just to think about it since there's so many thoughts laying in my head..mostly unimportant things..haha

what is the thoughts that give me the creeps??
maybe the answer is losing my bancil..ga penting haha (there's something wrong with my brain for sure)
but it's true i can't ever imagine i would go to sleep without my bancil..
my bancil is actually my since-baby pillow..haha
it's very shapeless and flabby since i owned it when i was a baby girl..and i never added the kapuk (i dont know how to spell it in english..forgive my lack would you? hehe) anymore..

He (yes i reckon my pillow as a he ;p) always there through my bad and good times..
i share my tears with him..something that i rarely do to other people..even to my very best friend..
i feel comfortable just looking him there on my bed..laying still (i must be insane haha)

my parents do tried to get rid off that pillow from me..
when i'm still in my young age..they said "we'll give you a new pillow or let us add more kapuk on your pillow" but i refused it..i think that it would not be the same anymore..i dont want a different pillow..i already satisfied with this one haha
when i'm on my age now..they said "look..your not a child anymore..are you gonna keep that pillow until you married? don't be so childish" and my answer is YES..
the man who will be my future husband must accept my bancil too..haha
finally they don't bother anymore..they just like shook their head..speechless ;p

now every time i go out of town..my families always asking me.."where's your lovely-hunny-bunny bancil?" or if they see my bancil they'll say "ckck why you always bring that smelly pillow? have you ever grow up?"
hahahhahahaha

so if my bancil suddenly disappear i would become crazy for sure..haha
i can't even imagine if that really happens..it just creeps me ;p

anyway I've post the video for you below..this is the live version..
i'll post the lyrics in different post..
enjoy ;p

Preface

reduced paper use..

in order to fulfil that statement i've decided to blabbering out here..
share my thoughts and all that crap things a.k.a nyampah hahaha

so here we go.. ;p