Ridiculously Long Questions & Answers!

happy reading (or not)! hihi (●*∩_∩*●)

1.Why aren't you with the person you were once in love with?
because i've found another love haha

2.How many months until your birthday?
hmmm 7 months, i guess..

3.What's your favorite part of the song that you're listening to?
the lyrics! hoping that someday someone will sing that song for me =)

4.Do you think you're a good friend?
you should asked my friends about that..they will give you vary answers

5.If the year consisted of only one season, which would you choose?
Spring! it's warm..

6.Could you go out in public looking like you do now?
well, i've done it before hehe

7.What was on your mind mostly today?
can i get the job? and what will i wear to java rockin' land next week..the last one is VERY important haha

8.What’s the best feeling in the world?
when finally you get what you want after a lot of efforts and hard works..

9.Do you like the rain?
i like the atmosphere..

10.Who was the last person you got into a small argument with?
i think it was my mother, but i forget the reason..

11.Can you handle the truth?
i think i'm quite good handling the truth..so, yes i can..

12.How often do you hold back from saying what you are thinking?
rarely..i used to said what's on my mind..

13.Are there some songs you can't listen to because they remind you of someone?
right now? no..back then? yes i guess..but i moved on hehe

14.Last night, did you go to sleep smiling?
how suppose i see my face smiling when i'm sleeping? silly questions..

15.Where did you sleep last night?
on my sanctuary

16.Did you have a good day yesterday?
not really..i'm very tired and dizzy..

17.Do you hate anyone?
no one at the moment..but i will if someone buggering me haha

18.Does anyone call you baby?
hahaha yes..but it's beibiii instead of baby..

19.In the next 5 months, what are you looking forward to most?
getting my dream jobs..

20.What is bothering you right now?
these all do nothing and stuff, jobless..

21.Do you wish you had the chance to tell someone something right now?
yes and i will say it loudly

22.I’ll bet you miss someone right now?
no one special, but yes i miss some of my long lost friends..

23.Who would you want to be tied to for 24 hours?
Mr. Jude Law! i'm gonna wild with him haha

24.How do you vent your anger?
yelling! haha

25.Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
nanad the wild..also known as my best friend haha

26.Who was the last person to make you smile?
ngio x)

27.Stress reliever?
shopping! definitely haha

28.Have you ever wasted too much time on a certain boy or girl?
i managed my time wisely in relationship, so i don't feel like wasting it..haha

29.Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
surely sure! too much confidence haha

30.Has anyone disappointed you recently?
yes..but he promised to fix it =)

31.Does it take a lot to make you cry?
sometimes, when i'm not in extremely bad mood haha

32.Is your best friend in love?
yes! but sadly it's one sided love..

33.Do horror movies these days scare you?
yeah, especially Japan's horror movies..

34.What is the best thing that's happened in the past week?
i've got 100 on my korean's mid test..the score is being announced this last Wednesday

35.Is there an A in your name?
yuph..

36.What color is your hair?
black..

37.What's the weather like outside?
hot evening..

38.If your friends warn you about someone, do you listen?
mostly NO..especially when i had thing with that person hahaha at least i've to know that someone first :p

39.What are you doing tonight?
seeing my boyfriend and maybe have some dinner with him..

40.When was the last time you had butterflies?
recently..haha

41.Have you ever thrown your cell phone in anger? When?
no, i don't throw anything when i'm angry..i'm yelling! haha

42.How's your heart lately?
pretty fine..

43.Do you think you will be in a relationship three months from now?
well, i'm in relationship now..

44.Do you want to fix things with anybody?
sort of..but that's not really necessary at the moment hehe

45.Could you go the rest of your life without drinking alcohol?
i'm not a drinker, so i'm absolutely could go the rest of my life without it =)

46.Do you hate the last person you kissed?
naaaaahhh..if i hate the person i would never kissed..

47.Do you expect your favorite ex to call or text you?
nope..

48.Do you use smiley faces on the computer a lot?
absolutely! x)

49.Do you like red bull?
i never taste it before..

50.Have you ever written anything on a bathroom wall or door?
maybe, when i'm in high school haha

51.Do you blow dry your hair?
sometimes when i must go out but my hair is still wet..i don't like going out with wet hair =)

52.Do you think relationships are ever worth it?
yep, the good and the bad..

53.Do your parents really know you?
i suppose..don't they? haha

54.Are you happy right now?
not really..there's a slight sadness in me..

55.Do you think anyone likes you right now?
everyone likes me! haha..i don't know for sure to be honest

56.What's the 6th text on your phone and whose it from?
"ayo semangat bla bla bla" from my boyfriend..

57.Do you have a little sister?
yep..

58.Tell me a fact about the last person that texted you?
well, he's my boyfriend for almost 2 years and he's 25cm taller than me..

59.When's the last time you had an Oreo?
1 month ago if i'm not mistaken..i don't care anyway hehe

60.Want something you can't have?.
always haha just like everyone in this earth..

61.Do you have a secret that you've never told ANYONE?
yep..it's S.E.C.R.E.T

62.Are you taller than 5'6?
i really hope so..

63.Is there stuff from your past that you miss?
all the not-worry-about-anything part..

64.How would you feel if your last ex fell in love with someone else?
hoping they will get along and happy..literally! :)

65.Interested in anyone at the moment?
it depends on what kind of interest you asking? hehe

66.Are you in a good mood right now?
not exactly..i'm a little bit sad

67.What made you sad today?
it's just me and what can't i do..

68.Do you like to make the first move?
well, sometimes if i have to..

69.Do you hate it when people smoke around you?
nope..i don't mind it as long as they don't blow the smoke straight to my face..

70.Do you like to take walks?
nope! haha it's very hot here in jakarta to take a walks..

71.Are you trying to avoid liking somebody at the moment?
i already liking somebody right now :)

72.Who was the last person you took a picture with?
kendi and ayu cumi..when we biking together..

73.Do you have someone you can be your complete self around?
yep!

74.Have you ever fallen in love with someone you didn't expect?
haha yes i guess..

75.What's the last thing you said out loud to someone?
i wont to keep it as a secret if you don't mind :)

76.How many people have you kissed in the past 5 months?
1 for sure!

77.What's the last text message in your inbox say and who's it from?
a notification from facebook..

78.What are you doing tomorrow?
attending 4 wedding party..geez lots of my friends getting married recently, i wonder when will my turn haha

79.What's the best memory you've made?
i can't decided it yet..

80.When's the last time you ate?
1 hour before i published this post..

81.How many bruises do you have?
hmm i only remember 1 so far, it's in my forehead..

82.Have you ever kissed an 18 year old?
i think so haha

83.What's a fact about the last person you kissed?
i'll give you another fact..he's a drummer =)

84.Have you ever done something you regretted later?
yep..but who doesn't? after all we're only humans..

85.Would you be able to date someone who doesn't make you laugh?
nope..i surely will get old so fast if i'm being with someone like that haha

86.Are you growing apart from someone close?
nay..

87.Do you think you could ever get a tattoo?
i want to but i can't..

88.What will you be doing at 3:00PM tomorrow?
maybe still attending a wedding party..gosh, tomorrow will be a long day..

89.When is your birthday?
february, 12th

90.Will this weekend be a good one?
yes, i will make it good for sure =)

91.Are you wearing makeup?
occasionally, but i do wear face powder and eye liner for daily outing..

92.Have you thought about an ex today?
extra time to sleep! haha

93.It's 4 in the morning, your phone rings, what do you do?
see the caller id and probably picked the phone up if i have the strength..

94.Are you waiting for something?
yep..

95.Have you ever been awake for more than 2 nights straight?
oh don't ask! i'm doing it regularly when i'm working my thesis haha

96.Who is the next person you will hold hands with?
my boyfriend of course =)

97.Have you ever kissed someone and never saw them again?
nope..but that's kinda exiciting isn't it? haha

98.What's the last sporting event you watched?
soccer and it's only a 5 second watching haha

99.What do the majority of people in your life call you?
tita

100.If someone liked you, would you want them to tell you?
in proper way..

101.Do you have a best friend you can tell stuff to and you're sure they won't tell?
yep, i have my partner in crime hihi

102.Is there anyone who doesn't like you?
there's always like and dislike..so yes, there's anyone who doesn't like me and i know one of them..haha

103.Are you anything like you were at this point last year?
in some part..

104.Do you drink water?
hell yeah..stupid question..

105.When things get bad, are you more likely to blame yourself or somebody?
somebody! haha it's easier that way..

106.Is it hard for you to ask for help?
depends on the thing..

107.Have you ever shared a blanket with someone?
yep, many times i guess..

108.What is your favorite kind of weather?
cloudy days

109.Is there anyone that you wish was out of your life?
i'm tired get ridding people from my life haha

110.Have you ever made out in a car?
it's a secret i wont tell (quoting GG) haha

111.Who were you with last night at 11:11?
bancil and benben, my true friend..

112.Are you someone who worries too often?
only when i get stressed out..

113.What does your hair look like right now?
messy..

114.What was the first thing you did this morning?
looking new text messages on my phone..

115.What do you want right now?
get a job! what can i say? i'm sick being jobless haha

116.Are any of your friend's so close that you consider them family?
of course..more than 1 person..

117.What color shirt are you wearing?
i'm wearing a duster actually..the color is white with blue accent..

118.Do you think anybody wants to see you right now?
maybe..i don't know

119.What is the longest you have ever talked on the phone?
3 hours as i remembered..

120.Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?
yep..

121.Were you threatening to stop this survey because it is ridiculously long?
hahaha i just gonna use a confundus charm to this survey..

From Post Secret to Secondhand Serenade

quoting secondhand serenade's song, titled your call..

"i was born to tell you i love you"

sumpah,

susah banget yaaa mau kerja ajaaaaaa! beneran deh susaaaahhh..apalagi kalo perusahaan yang di apply cukup bonafit..yuk mariiiiii..

kya hari ini, gw kan ada psikotest dan toeic buat tahap awal masuk ke sebuah well known oil company (one of my dream jobs is to work in an oil's company)..dan setau gw masuk oil company tuh susah parah, mau oil company swasta atau BUMN sama susahnya..either you have to be so smart or harus ada link yang canggih ke orang dalem..kalo ga punya salah satunya ya goodbye bye bye..Dari awal gw uda ngira kalo competitor gw pasti smart ass people semua, soalnya dari persyaratan buat apply the job aja GPA minimumnya 3,30..kebayang kan gimana seremnya saingan-saingan gw itu haha..lebih parahnya lagi job position availablenya cuma dikit banget, cuma 16 orang yang bakal diterima dari 1200 applicant (info dari panitia recruitmentnya)..haaa makin stress kan tuuuhh..saingannya berat, positions availablenya juga limited banget..yaahh gw sih nothing to lose aja, sok berusaha pasrah haha

terus yang bikin bete adalah tesnya seharian aja gituuu..dari jam 9an pagi sampe jam setengah 7 malem..
bayangkaaaann, seharian kerjaannya cuma jawab bejibun soal..sama sekali not fun..nih ya gw total-total hari ini gw memaksa otak gw bekerja sekitar 6 jam non stop! dan itu beneran menguras tenaga, abis tes gw langsung berasa lemah letih lesu..pengennya langsung rebahan..capeeeeekkkkk!! kalo gini gw makin pengen bikin usaha sendiri..bebaaasss semau-mau gw..

Kenapa ya?

most of women arounds me are so proud being smoker, drinking until they get drunk, atau yang paling ekstrim gone wild in sex activities and doing it with someone they like even though he's not her boyfriend..kalo suka sama suka ya uda langsung hajar bleh aja, walopun mungkin ga sampe ML juga sih yang penting nafsu terlampiaskan (kok kasar ya kendengerannya? haha)..and they don't even feel sorry about that..bebas hidupnya yaaa haha

i'm not judging them as a bad person because of that, not at all..ada juga kok perempuan yang ga ngelakuin semua yang gw sebut diatas tapi kelakuannya much much more worse dan kaya pain in the ass haha i know they did it for many reason, such as buat penenang supaya ga stres, biar kurus, heals their broken heart, supaya dapat inspirasi atau cuma sekedar ikut-ikutan doang..

well, i admitted that i'm not that innocent..gw pernah juga doing those things above (excluding the sex part hehe) when i'm still in high school..tapi ya begitu masuk kuliah uda sama sekali ga pernah lagi, ga tau kenapa but i'm not really into that kind of thing..gw termasuk orang yang konservatif dealing with that kind of thing and i'm done hurting myself even more, soalnya ya gw punya asma uda gitu kulit gw juga sensitif, suka keliatan kusam-kusam gitu dan kadang malah suka gatel-gatel ga jelas..yah kalo gw tetep nekat mah alamat memperpendek hidup gw aja haha lagian gw sayang uangnya mendingan buat beli yang lain..

sebenernya gw sama sekali ga ada masalah sih dengan kelakuan mereka yang seperti itu, gw cuma heran aja kenapa ya kok sepertinya mereka bangga banget dengan apa yang mereka lakukan? apa gw yang salah menilai mereka atau emang itu gambaran perempuan modern masa kini? i hope it's not..

Four for all

-FOUR NAMES THAT FRIENDS CALL YOU:
ta, ditzditz, bocil, dintul

-FOUR MOST IMPORTANT DATES IN YOUR LIFE:
12 Feb, 24 Oct, 11 Nov and 5 Jan..i won't tell you why hehe

-FOUR THINGS YOU'VE DONE IN THE LAST 30 MINUTES:
phoning with my bf, listening to mew's new album, sending text message, and go to bathroom

-FOUR WAYS TO BE HAPPY:
loving someone and being loved, chit-chatting with my best friends and my families, eating delicious foods and go shopping..it's easy to please me haha

-FOUR PEOPLE YOU MISS FROM YOUR PAST:
oma (almh), datuk (alm), riki and dini..

-FOUR GIFTS YOU WOULD LIKE TO RECEIVE :
something from chloe or stella mccartney, hellogoodbye's ticket concerts, airplane's tickets to europe and lot's of books! haha ada kyana ya yang mau ngasih..

-FOUR OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
reading, watching movies, gossipping and talking to my boyfriend! haha what a nice hobbies i have..

-FOUR PLACES YOU WANT TO GO FOR VACATION:
Lombok, jeju island in Korea, Venice and Prague..semoga terwujud, amiiinn!

-FOUR FAVORITE DRINKS:
hot chocolate, apple juice, lemonade and minuman yang anget-anget..

-FOUR THINGS ALWAYS FOUND IN YOUR BAG:
minyak telon, tissue, toothpicks and ATM Card

-FOUR FAVORITE COLORS:
nude/pastel, black, gold and brown..i must say every nude/pastel colors always go with me haha

-TOP FOUR HANGOUTS:
home, cozy bookstores, nice restaurant/cafe and my rooms..i'm a hommy kind of person

-TOP FOUR U LOVE SO MUCH:
Families, Clothes, Books and cute things (including cute boys haha)

-FOUR "THINGS" SPECIAL TO YOU:
bancil, barang-barang koleksi gw, besties, and last but not least my bf hihihi

-FOUR EVENTS YOU WILL NEVER FORGET:
Graduation, being a high school's student, each of my birthday celebrations (walopun gw rada lupa pesta ultah gw waktu masih piyik hehe) and falling in love (norak banget gw, biarin ah haha)

-FOUR THINGS YOU OFTEN DID WHEN YOU WERE A KID:
main sepeda, swimming, being grumpy and dancing

-TOP FOUR REASONS WHY YOU ANSWERED THIS SURVEY:
iseng, belum ngantuk, biar ngantuk dan ga bisa tidur..intinya biar kecapean mikir dan jadi ngantuk haha ngisi ginian aja pake mikir ya gw haha

-TOP FOUR WHO YOU THINK WILL ANSWER THIS SURVEY:
i don't know..siapa aja yang baca blog gw kali yaaa (berasa banyak yang baca haha)

Bisa ga ya?

writer / CC BY-NC-ND 3.0

gw sih keseringannya go with the flow without over-prepare hihihi soalnya agak susah ya kalo uda over prepare tapi setelah itu harus go with the flow, pasti maunya kan things work out just like we planned before..iya kan? iya kan? haha nyari dukungan gitu gw x)

Can't wait any longer ✖‿✖

Dare to be different!

image courtesy of Jak & Jil Blog

i love these whole outfit! though the hair is a little bit too much for me hehe
i really want to have high confidence like her, shouting out my own style..

To all my friends,

whose being broken-hearted recently, facing difficult times in their life because of that..i would like to share these encouraging words taken from a movie's called he's just not that into you..

Gigi's said..

"Girls are taught a lot of stuff growing up. If a boy punches you he likes you, never try to trim your own bangs, and someday you will meet a wonderful guy and get your very own happy ending. every movie we see, every story we're told implores us to wait for it. The third act twist, the unexpected declaration of love, the exception to the rule. But sometimes we're so focused on finding our happy ending we don't learn how to read the signs. How to tell the ones who want us from the ones who don't, the ones who will stay and the ones who will leave. And maybe a happy ending doesn't include a guy, maybe it's you, on your own, picking up the pieces and starting over, freeing yourself up for something better in the future. Maybe the happy ending is just moving on. Or maybe the happy ending is this: knowing after all the unreturned phone calls and broken-hearts, through the blunders and misread signals, through all the pain and embarrassment..you never gave up hope."


and i suggested you to watch the movie, maybe it can be a good healing therapy for you and i hope you will find your own version of happy ending..kisses and hugs!

this is what i wanna hear

from my future husband to be..no matter what conditions we're facing in our future as a husband and wife, i hope that he will always saying those words for me..only for me! and i would run into his arms again..no doubt and gladly!

the words are actually taken from 3T's song called Anything..enjoy the video, kisses!

So if there ever comes a time

When it's true love you hope to find
Just call out my name
And, girl, I swear I would do anything
I'll give you love, the things you want
i would do anything for you

Fucking Terrorist!!

di Jakarta ada bom lagi!! kenapa sih ya giliran uda aman damai tentram sentosa selama hampir 5 tahun terakhir ini, trus turis-turis uda pada mau dateng lagi ke Indonesia..band-band luar sampe pemain bola juga uda pada mau dateng kesini..eeeehhh tiba-tiba ada bom meledak aja gituuuuuu..ruined everything, sumpah bikin marah banget! emangnya kalo uda gini yang jadi korban orang lain? ga kaliii, bangsa kita sendiri juga yang kena, yang rugi..ujung-ujungnya keadaan ekonomi tambah susah, uda susah dibikin makin susah..

bener-bener deh kenapa sih milih profesi kok jadi teroris..what's the benefit? uda gila kali ya tu pelaku pengeboman, mau aja jadi bom berjalan..emangnya kalo uda gitu bisa lenggang kangkung masuk surga? dimana-mana yang namanya suicide itu mah haram hukumnya..HEY! you don't need to be a smart one to knows that fact!
tsk tsk heran gw, tu pelaku pengeboman sebenernya emang plain stupid or too smart sih sampe mau-maunya di doktrin buat ngelakuin itu semua..kok ya tega-teganya..
liat aja nih sekarang banyak orang-orang ga bersalah jadi korban (ga mikir apa ya kalo salah satu korbannya bisa jadi masih sodara or temen..), nilai rupiah turun lagi dan lain-lain deh..yang pasti this thing will give a bad impact for us, Indonesians!

gara-gara this effing bomb's blasts MU ga jadi dateng kesini (walopun gw juga ga bakal nonton sih kalo mereka jadi dateng), trus nanti mungkin aja di detik-detik terakhir menjelang java rockin land Mew sama Secondhand Serenade batal dateng kesini gara-gara dapet travel warning dari negaranya haaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! x(
yah selamat berkecewa-kecewa ria deh..

gw jadi pengen mengutuk tu orang-orang biadab yang ga punya hati! mudah-mudahan semua yang terlibat pengeboman ini dikasih azab sama Yang Maha Kuasa! Amin!

and Deep condolences for all the victims..

a WARNING for us from Post Secret..

,

be more careful in everything and step your pace cautiously, in short..
live your life wisely!

I'd Prefer..

- staying up late than wake up early. haha bad old habits.
- followers than haters turn to be followers.
- hot chocolate than any kind of coffees.
- wearing duster than wearing pajamas. I'm a duster lover!
- skinny boys than muscular boys. too much muscles equals to scary, in my opinion hehe
- go watch a movie alone than waiting. seriously!
- do luluran by myself at home than having it done by mba-mba salon.
- tweeting than plurking. no particular reason haha.
- washing clothes than ironing. i hate ironing! panaaass.
- sushi than sashimi. even though i can eat both of them.
- tailoring my clothes than buying it at stores.
- chocolate flavoured ice cream than vanilla flavoured ice cream.
- not having breakfast than have to spend more time in the toilet. for poop, ops sorry.
- short hair than long hair. since i don't have thick hair and to prevent worse hair fall.
- glasses than contact lens.
- applying hand and body lotion than applying a face powder. it is all because I've this really dry skins.
- being hugged than being kissed. especially warm and big tight hugs haha.
- tattoos than piercings.
- minyak telon than minyak kayu putih.
- losing my money than losing my bancil. haha lebaaayyy.

Yesterday is the day

I've been very busy picking up my phone yesterday, it won't stop ringing..the thing is because 3 of my friends having a problems at exactly the same time and they all need me to hear their stories..what a fuss! don't get me wrong, i used to be a very good listeners but this time, hands up..i just can't handle it anymore..i think i loss my capability to hear, or maybe my brains is too freeze to give a command for hearing..i can feel my ears burning since it was a 3-4 hours endless phoning..even though i already switching the phone constantly to the left and the right ears..haaa it's very hectic day for my ears! i can't even pay attention to my bf fully..since I'm busy talking on the phone..thanks God his been busy playing some game and surfing the net..but it doesn't stop me to feel sorry towards him..

Please calm down a little girls..i know you're facing difficult and hard times in your life at this moment..and you know that I'll always there for you, supporting you..i can assure you that.. it's not that i don't care about your problems or don't want to hear all your blabber and stuff..hell no! you know i would never do that..it's just i need a tiny little space to breath for a moment, resting my mind and my ears..I'll not going anywhere far..i hope you understand (i know you will!)..

for the meantime all i can say is please help yourself a favor, do anything that will made you feel better..it's okay if you want to cry all night out and wake up with puffy eyes, having total make over, go shopping or even cursing to your ex's bf/boss/at everything..pleased yourself in the good way..i believe you can do that..just like saint loco's said..

"Santai saja kawan. Ikuti kata hati biarkan sedihmu berlalu. Kau pasti bisa.
Menjadi suatu hari dengan pagi yang baru. Tenang saja kawan. Hadapilah semua.
Kau harus bersabar. Semua indah pada waktunya"

Everything gonna be okay and you'll put a brightly smile on your face again!! i love you girls..xoxo

Election Day !

I'm using my rights to vote! Hope the best team win, for better Indonesia! i hope so..yaaaaaayyyyyy
v(^o^)v

the ugly and long lasting purple ink as proof

Looking back on that day

I started to write this blogs 2 months after my graduation day and never post anything about how i feel back then..so when i hear this song by Sheila on 7 played in the radio, it's reminds me again about my graduation day and quite representing how i feel for being graduated..leave college life behind..taking my own way to face the real jungle outhere..

hmmm i'm kinda missed that moment actually..if only i can turn back the time..

Sebuah Kisah Klasik Untuk Masa Depan

Jabat tanganku, mungkin untuk yang terakhir kali
Kita berbincang tentang memori di masa itu
Peluk tubuhku usapkan juga air mataku
Kita terharu seakan tidak bertemu lagi

Bersenang-senanglah
Kar'na hari ini yang 'kan kita rindukan
Di hari nanti sebuah kisah klasik untuk masa depan

Bersenang-senanglah
Kar'na waktu ini yang 'kan kita banggakan di hari tua

Sampai jumpa kawanku
S'moga kita selalu
Menjadi sebuah kisah klasik untuk masa depan

Bersenang-senanglah
Kar'na hari ini yang 'kan kita rindukan
Di hari nanti...

Mungkin diriku masih ingin bersama kalian
Mungkin jiwaku masih haus sanjungan kalian

Silly thought

Kemaren siang atau lebih tepatnya tadi siang (cause i'm writing this post at 2 o'clock in the morning) pas gw berangkat les..gw melihat pemandangan di dalam angkot yang mungkin sebenernya biasa aja, ga aneh sama sekali..tapi ga tau kenapa it's getting my interest..jadi ada sebuah keluarga terdiri dari ibu, bapak dan 2 anaknya di dalam angkot itu..gw duduk persis di depan mereka..otomatis arah pandangan gw ke mereka..dan gw melihat mereka really looks happy dan becanda-becanda riang gitu satu sama lain! padahal udaranya lagi panas banget dan tau sendiri lah gimana kondisi di dalam angkot yang hampir penuh di saat panas..tapi mereka keliatannya fine-fine aja, mukanya tetep ceria ga kepanasan kaya gw hehe and i don't know why when i see their face, suddenly i feel envy with their closeness and joyful relations..bukannya gw sama keluarga gw not having a good families relationship kaya mereka yaa..gw belum pernah sama sekali naik angkot bareng seluruh keluarga gw lengkap dan sepanjang jalan gw jadi mikir kalo misalnya keluarga gw yang naik angkot itu tadi siang bakalan keliatan se happy mereka ga ya?
instantly, I've this ridiculous but exciting thought popping out from my head..gw pengen naik angkot bareng keluarga gw! sekali aja! pengen ngerasain gimana rasanya naik angkot bareng nyokap bokap kakak dan 2 adik gw..ga perlu jauh-jauh perginya cukup keliling kompleks..pasti bakalan seru since that day bakalan jadi hari pertama gw liat bokap gw naik angkot haha seru..seru..

kira-kira bisa ga ya gw realisasiin?

Make peace with yourself..

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for me this is another hard thing to do..years ago i'm used to feel insecure about who i'm..there's many times that i just feel pretending is much better than showing my real skin..and that thought stayed quite long in my brains..it's bad isn't it?

honestly this is still hard to be done for until now, but i tried to make peace with myself in every possible ways..accepting all as one complete parts, one integral parts..as who i am..as ME..
maybe there will be a low and difficult times in the future that gonna makes me feel insecure again but i hope at that times pretending is not my options to choose..

is not like that i'm pretending now..hell no..i'm pretty comfortable showing my own skin..it's just sometimes the thought of being comfortable with my own skin is not as easy as it may sound..
cheerio!

Breathtaking

as i promised to you guys (banyak kayanya ya yang baca haha) in my previous post, this are some of Annie Leibovitz's shoot Marie Antoinette for Vogue US..
if you want to check all the pictures that featured in the magazine just simply click here

I'm not a huge fans of kirsten dunst but i can tell you she looks stunning in the pictures..well, that's what you get when working with genius photographer, the best stylist and super creative make up artist and hair stylist..cheerio!

here's the behind-the-scenes video..enjoy!

this song's stayed in my brains lately..

is not like i'm feeling this song..but i just can't removed the beat off from my head and the plus is this song have a very strong lyrics..so, let's sing! x)

Madonna - Miles Away

I just woke up from a fuzzy dream
You never would believe those things that I have seen
I looked in the mirror and I saw your face
You looked right through me, you were miles away

All my dreams they fade away
I'll never be the same
If you could see me the way you see yourself
I can't pretend to be someone else

Always love me more, miles away
I hear it in your voice, miles away
You're not afraid to tell me, miles away
I guess we're at our best when miles away

So far away, so far away, so far away, so far away
So far away, so far away, so far away, so far away

When no one's around then I have you here
I begin to see the picture, it becomes so clear
You always have the biggest heart
When we're six thousand miles apart

Too much of no sound
Uncomfortable silence can be so loud
Those three words are never enough
When it's long distance love

I'm alright, don't be sorry, but it's true
When I'm gone, you'll realize
That I'm the best thing that happened to you

Welcome July!

oh my gosh it's July already..i can't believe how times's flies so fast! I'm not even making any significant change for myself yet!! well, maybe i'm bit too much..there's must be a little tiny change in me, i believe..there's must be! haha

so what's happening in my life lately..let's see..
- my Korean lessons getting difficult each days..there's a lot of memorizing thing, which is not e.a.s.y! i tried not to twist my tongue every time i speak the language haha
- I'm swimming regularly now..so i think i became more healthy than before..
- i still can't drive! crap! it's mainly because i don't practice at all last month..i must do some catch up for the rest of this month..just hits the road! talk less do more, yeah right..
- hoping to be hired soon..still in progress..wish me everybody!
- there's some tense-up problems to deal with in my family..I'm a little bit scared, but i believe we'll gonna find a way to get through this..God please help me and my family..
- my boredom has gone away..not completely..but that's fine enough, at least I'm not being fussy about the ugly mood i had these past days..
- I've got new excitement from some projects..can't tell you what for now, so you'd better put your curiosity back..I'll write it another time, maybe =)
- I'll have to share my room with my sister again, cause she's decided to continue her study here in jakarta..there's must be lot of cats fight between us in the future lol
- hmm what else? i'm doing pretty well on saving-money-and-not-shop-randomly thing lately..which is very good in my case..
- and the least thing (finally!) I'm managed to woke up early these past days! well, a hour early to be honest..but it's still can be considered as good progress, isn't it? haha

hope this whole month full of bless and joy! kisskiss