When you want something in life,

you just gotta reach out and grab it..that is some quote from the movie that i've watched couple days a go on HBO..at first i dont understand the stories and the plot, it's so absurd and confusing haha later on when the movie was finished i realize that it wasa flashback kind of plot, stupid me haha the movie's based on true story about a man named Christopher McCandless, who left everything he had (money, families, his perfect life) and travels along the way to Alaska to live in the wilderness, searching for what he called the true knowledge..along in his extraordinary journey he encounters and makes friends with many unconventional but good people..giving more shape into his life and the people's life..

"The sea's only gifts are harsh blows, and occasionally the chance to feel strong. Now I don't know much about the sea, but I do know that that's the way it is here. And I also know how important it is in life not necessarily to be strong but to feel strong. To measure yourself at least once. To find yourself at least once in the most ancient of human conditions. Facing the blind death stone alone, with nothing to help you but your hands and your own head."
when i watch this part i feel like somehow i know what he mean, what he's feeling inside, i understand that feeling..it's like the feeling i have had when i just graduated..and i'm like 'wow you're sooo right, do what you wanna do with your own strenght, just bring out all the courage and face it!' actually that is the line which made me stayed in front of the tv and watch the whole movie hehe

hmm my favourite scene in the movie is when Chris meet an old soldier named Ron Franz, who lost all his families because an accident and later on the old man wish to adopt Chris because he acknowledge Chris just like his grandchild..i just loved to watch they had a very interesting conversation in top of a cliff talking about human relationship..

"Chris : you are wrong if you think that the joy of life comes principally from the joy of human relationships. God's place is all around us, it is in everything and in anything we can experience. People just need to change the way they look at things.
Ron : But there is some kind of bigger thing that we can all appreciate and it sounds to me you don't mind calling it God. But when you forgive, you love. And when you love, God's light shines through you."
that's sooo truuuueee! i really want to have this enlightening kind of conversation..it'll give shape in my life even more :)

and i found this good lines that completely struck into my head and i think it will remainds for quite a long time in my sleepyhead hehe

"Happiness only real when shared" Chris McCandless

go share all the happiness in you!

well, i dont think is wise enough to share all part of the movie here hehe it's not fun if you already know the whole stories before watching it with your own eyes..so i suggest you to go find the dvd in the nearest store and feel what i feel! haha this movie is inspiring, hope it'll give you the same effect :)
kisskiss!

it would be fun =)

i found this on post secret when am randomly surfing the net and suddenly feel the necessity to share it with you, readers hehe sometimes i do feel like chillin' with God when i chanting my prayers haha what about you?

Happy Ied Mubarak =)

why we keep doing those thing?

exactly what i feel for you last night..
My mouth is frozen so I can't even speak..What a disappointment, I had it perfectly

What I was going to bring up suddenly..Stood like a stone as you stood quietly
You're making it hard for me..All I can do is freeze
What I mean is, all I need is, Just a little emotion
Cause all I see is you not feeling..And you're giving me nothing nice
I tried to do you right, why'd you have to go and turn to ice..


stop hurting each other..am tired :(

Fireflies..

You would not believe your eyes
If ten million fireflies
Lit up the world as I fell asleep
Cuz they fill the open air
And leave teardrops everywhere
You'd think me rude, but I would just stand and stare

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay awake when I'm asleep
Cuz everything is never as it seems

Cuz I get a thousand hugs
From ten thousand lightning bugs
As they try to teach me how to dance
A foxtrot above my head
A sock hop beneath my bed
A disco ball is just hanging by a thread

Leave my door open just a crack
(Please take me away from here)
Cuz I feel like such an insomniac
(Please take me away from here)
Why do I tire of counting sheep?
(Please take me away from here)
When I'm far to tired to fall asleep

To ten million fireflies
I'm weird cuz I hate goodbyes
I got misty eyes as they said farewell (said farewell)
But I'll know where several are
If my dreams get real bizarre
Cuz I saved a few and I keep them in a jar

PS..this song really warm my heart :)

Original not Aspal..

writer / CC BY-NC-ND 3.0

hard thing to do yet challenging..

good one..

Sahabat macam apa?

gila yaa..uda gw kasih tau juga gw lagi sakit, bukannya nanyain gimana keadaan gw malah sibuk berkeluh kesah tentang betapa semua orang udah move on with their life to the next level sedangkan elo ngrasa masih jalan di tempat, stagnan..heeeiii ini gw lagi sakit, at least give a little attention to my health condition..duh what kind of bestfriend are you?
yah gw maklum sih kenapa elo ngerasa hidup loe gitu-gitu aja..elo bahkan ga bisa bersimpati sama keadaan gw sekarang, your so called bestfriend..jadi gimana elo mau maju? iya ga SAHABAT ku?
sorry ya tapi sumpah gw kesel banget sama loe hari ini..*harusnya sih elo uda tau ya?*


haa bulan puasa banyak banget cobaannya..pahala gw lama-lama abis deh..maap ya Allah

fed up..

rasanya hari ini gw pengen marah-marah, i know kalo lagi puasa harus menahan segala emosi..tapiii i can't help not feeling fed up today..ditambah lagi dengan panas level maksimum di luar sana..jadi gpp lah ya sehari aja di bulan puasa ini gw menumpahkan kekesalan..mudah2an pahala gw ga berkurang banyak hehe..

gw ada planning buat nerusin korea 2 dan deadline pendaftarannya paling lambat minggu ini..terus gw tanya lah ke bokap boleh atau ga gw nerusin dan jawabannya adalah TIDAK! haaa why oh why? kata bokap les inggris aja ambil conversation (lagi-lagi), terus gw bilang gw mau les inggris tapi les korea juga jalan eeehhh tetep lho ga boleh..intinya dia merasa belajar korea itu useless, ga bakal dipake buat kerja..terus dia cerita (based on his experiences) ga enak kerja di perusahaan korea bla bla bla..gw uda males aja dengerinnya, sorry pap but that's true..kenapa siiihh mau belajar bahasa aja harus yang related to work terus..padahal kan dia juga ga tau nanti ke depannya gimana..siapa tau bahasa korea bakal sepopuler bahasa mandarin, jepang atau perancis..kenapa sih harus berpikiran mainstream? toh maksud gw belajar korea karena gw emang pure suka dan pengen belajar..kalo kita ngelakuin sesuatu yg kita suka pasti kita juga lebih enjoy ngjalaninnya (terbukti gw ga pernah bolos sekalipun) dan lebih cepet bisa kan? menurut gw yang namanya belajar bahasa, bahasa apapun itu ga bakal sia-sia..pasti kepake entah itu sekarang atau in the future..yah walopun gw uda coba jelasin kaya gitu ke bokap tapi dia tetep aja ga ngasih permit..ya uda mau apa lagi, i can do nothing but accept it..secara ya uangnya juga uang dia..

trus i failed to get the job (the one i told you in previous post) and i'm feel very sad about it..bisa dibilang gw kehilangan semangat..dan kata-kata "sabar ya, belum rejeki" or "mungkin nanti mau dikasih yang lebih baik" sama sekali doesn't work for me..no offense for those people who said that to me, i'm very thankful for your sympathy and your effort for cheering me up..cuma ya itu gw mungkin terlalu sedih dan kecewa untuk bisa nerima kata-kata itu..akhirnya gw malah jadi kesel sendiri..not in the mood for anything..

apa lagi yaaa? oh iyaa, gw lagi agak-agak bete gimana gitu sama seseorang, she's such a copy cat..i know we share many things in common..tapi gw merasa kaya my dream's being stolen or maybe i just feel jealous, i don't know..dia dengan mudahnya bisa dapet semua yang gw pengen..pernah ga sih elo ngerasa kaya gitu? gw sendiri ga suka kalo gw lagi punya perasaan kaya gini..bener-bener ga ngenakin, rasanya gw kaya ga bersyukur dengan apa yang uda gw dapet..tapi gw juga ga bisa mencegah diri gw for not having that feeling..

bahkan badan gw sendiri tak bersahabat dengan gw hari ini..tenggorokan gw amat sangat gatel uda gitu disertai dengan batuk-batuk kecil yang tak kunjung berhenti..rasanya ga enak banget! ngeselin!

haaaa stop complaining! oh iya hampir lupaa, maap-maap ya klo gw ngbetein hari ini..you know why (itu juga kalo elo baca post ini sih hehe)..udah ah, annyong!

haaaaa hiks hiks

i get the feel and i know i can afford it, but why i still can't get it?
or YOU have another plans for me my dearest GOD?

September Ceria! (katanya)