all you need is hope :)

We are all in the gutter but some of us are looking at the stars.

--Oscar Wilde--

the graveyard of the atlantic

The Chesapeake below, these fumbled hands and nervous smiles
We medicate and stumble to find the courage to talk aloud
And the streetlight silhouette, your neon halo shines so bright
While the radio cried, young hearts be free tonight

So tell me how we end up here
We all want to feel something even if it’s only for a moment
Tell me what happened to our dreams we had when we were young
Never looking back

Tonight, these echoes of our lives, are calling out
Don’t surrender
Don’t surrender
Tonight, these jukebox 45’s are calling out
Don’t surrender
Don’t surrender

Well I am just a big part in this movie of your life
While the night brigade roll on out on highway 95
We’re carving out our lives on these counterfeit guitars
While the ghosts of our past rain down the boulevard

So tell me how we end up here
We all want to feel something even if it’s only for a moment
Tell me what happened to our dreams we had when we were young
We’re never looking back

Tonight these echoes of our lives
Are calling out
Don’t surrender
Don’t surrender
Tonight sad songs and whisky nights
Are calling out
Don’t surrender
Don’t surrender

We grew up chasing sunsets
Now we both just shut our eyes
We’re never looking back now

We were young and oh so bold
And torn apart by counting lights
We’re never looking back

Tonight these echoes of our lives are calling out
Don’t surrender
Don’t surrender
Tonight from the basements and the dives we’re calling out
Don’t surrender
Don’t surrender

***

ha! my brother's succeed poisoning me with this song ;)
and as always the ataris's song lyrics are never failed, well at least for me hehe
thumbs up!

is it true?

maybe i don't have the right to ask you this but i just can't hold it,
did you stole my brother's idea??? did you???
i know he shares the idea when you guys are still together.
i know it for sure.

Crave crave crave!!!

Who is Shinzi Katoh? He's a designer , a creator , an illustrator , an artist , a writer. Mr Shinzi is well known as a zakka designer.

So what's actually zakka? well, this is what wikipedia says..

"Zakka (from the Japanese 'zak-ka' or 'many things') is a fashion and design phenomenon that has spread from Japan throughout Asia. The term refers to everything and anything that improves your home, life and appearance"

And Mr Shinzi's stuffs? it's one hell superb stuffs! cute and adorable. His stuffs varies from tea (yes, you're not misread that ;p), linen , glass case to iphone case, everything just name it! He has every little thing you need to adorn both your home and yourself. oh i'm sooooo can not get my eyes off his works! i want to collect all of them, piece by piece! haha

i have this one dream that if i own a house someday in the future, i will fill it with Mr Shinzi's works! Amen for that :)

Do visit his web here -- Shinzi Katoh

mean while, some sneak peak for you..













just shoot me!! x)

Awake. :'(

When I'm expecting something from you, you never give me that something.
Even just for a little. Always.
I should have been accustomed.
Yet, I'm still very upset.
Why oh why?

Past

Hi old times, did you miss me?
Can you take me back for awhile?
I need to hide from the future, little bit.
Not because I'm not happy now.
I just want to see my old courage and silliness.
That's when life's less complicated, for me.
So, can you do that? :)

Thankful :)

Thank you mamio. You made my day.
You're the best! Kisses and hugs.

Wow!

This blog's full of blue kind of things recently, gloomy.
Ok, tomorrow will be different.
I'll put something more yellow and red.
Yeap.

I'm clueless and that's bad.

Tell me what can I do to lighten those sad eyes of yours?
Tell me what can I do to alleviate those tears that you hide behind your laughs?
I want to do something.
I hope I can do something.
:'(

Hello December,

:)

"I'm not afraid of storms, for I'm learning how to sail my ship"

-Little Women | Louisa May Alcott-

Untitled

I start filling those blank page without any clue about what will happen next.
Anxious. Insecure. You name it.
Am I the one who's feeling it?
Do you feel the way I do?
Can you see that I'm scared?
Oh never mind.

Random thought

I'm seriously need to stop taking you as my competitor. We're not even competing on something. Geez, what's wrong with me? Relax dit, r-e-l-a-x. You'll be just fine.

I'm not the one who's misunderstand

After all these years, you still treat me like that. I'm quite disappointed.
Hope you have fun there.

PS.
I'm not gonna see asobi seksu's concert tonite, well what can I say? Reality bites! Yah belum rejeki :(

it will be fine :)

Thursday

On gentle ground
I waited for you
In drops of dew
I wished that were you
With heavy hands
I reached out for you
My skin soaking wet
My eyes searched for you

-asobi seksu-

*****

i'll see you guys tomorrow, wootness! :D

came out from nowhere

Sometimes in life, there's a time when we just have to stop questioning.

for you, yes you.

Sentimental, meh!

And this flood, this flood is slowly rising up, swallowing the ground beneath, my feet.
Tell me how anybody thinks under this condition.
So I'll swim, I'll swim as the water rises up, sun is sinking and now
All I can see is the planets in a row suggesting it's best that I slow down.
This nights a perfect shade of...dark blue, dark blue
Have you ever been alone in a crowded room?

***

Dipikir-pikir kok gw galau amat ya kayanya? haha lame!

h.e.l.p.

Three

for the countless cat fight and stubbornness
witty conversations, that has become my daily dose
and unstoppable, both sad and happy tears
thank you :*

thank you for making me feel..alive and loved :')

기념일 축하 해요, massive polar hug! <333

i dont know what to do or say.

problems are always came to hand as we breath our life, rite? we are expected to deal with it in every possible-positive ways that we can find, rite? no matter what, we obliged to not give up. with that in mind, hopefully everything is gonna be better in no time. both for you and me.
Dear Almighty, please bless us. amen.

in November,

let's sit down and have a long conversation..sharing thoughts, dreams and plans..sipping margaritas and dipping our fingers into a jar of melted marshmallow while enjoying the scenery in front of us..let's do that for sure!

current feelings

Back to me, I know that it comes
Back to me, doesn't it scare you
Your will is not as strong, as it used to be

-John Mayer | Back To You-


i need a shoulder :'(

someone said

Life isn't about how to survive the storm, but how to dance in the rain.

i have the rain and i will have the dance, cheerio!

Suddenly feel anxious :(

Aliveness
Exploration
Aliveness
Energy

Are you the right man for me?
Are you safe? Are you my friend?
Are you the right man for me?
Are you safe? Are you my friend?

Aliveness
Exploration
Fulfillment
Creativity

It may be diverting
For some part of him

Are you the right man for me?
Are you safe? Are you my friend?
Or are you toxic for me?
Will you betray my confidence?

Are you the right man for me?
Are you safe? Are you my friend?
Or are you toxic for me?
Will you betray my confidence?

Naming things is empowering
I balance, walk
And coordinate myself, alive
Aliveness energy

Healthy dependence
And healthy independence
And healthy assurances
This love's a nameless dream
And healthy boundaries
And how long would you miss me

Are you the right man for me?
Are you safe? Are you my friend?
Or are you toxic for me?
Will you mistreat me
Or betray all my confidence?

Are you the right man for me?
Are you safe? Are you my friend?
Or are you toxic for me?
Will you mistreat me
Or betray all my confidence?

Are you the right man for me?
Are you safe? Are you my friend?
Or are you toxic for me?
Will you mistreat me
Or betray all my confidence?

-Cocteau Twins-

Saya penasaran,

Orang indonesia lagi pada kenapa ya akhir-akhir ini? saya baca berita, isinya ga jauh-jauh dari kerusuhan, bentrok antar suku dan kelompok masyarakat, perampokan bersenjata yang udah makin canggih kaya di film-film..hhh people tend to get angry easily these days, saya pernah denger seorang sosiolog bilang bahwa ini semua disebabkan oleh adanya ketidakstabilan sosial ekonomi..yayaya classic, yah emang masalah yang satu itu ga pernah ada abisnya ya dan ga pernah ada solusi pastinya (males ngebahasnya hahaha)

well, i believe good attitude will lead to good results and better life. in the end..so better habits, yes? at least for your own sake and for your beloved persons :)

I don't know why

it's just not the same and I'm scared to death :(

cherry on top

thank you for playing oh it's love :') i'm having a ghhhrrruueeeeeaaaattt time, kewl!!! ;p

YAYNESS

will catch them live tomorrow, yay! oh and tomorrow is a day off woot woot :D

The Prayer

Jika baik bagiku ya Allah, mohon kabulkan. Sekarang atau nanti. Jika tidak mohon gantikan. Yg lebih baik. Pasrah, ikhlas atas keputusanMu.
-Fira Basuki-

Amin.

oh yes, i envy you!

Envy is not the exact feeling but only that word which can describe the feeling inside
How do i get rid off it?
Who am I compete with and for what reason?
What is exactly that I'm trying to prove?
Why am I easily feels that?
Those question shadowing behind my back
I know I'm wasting both mind and time
And I'm feelin' effin bad about it :'(

Bah, this friggin insomnia really caused me a lame thought!

chin up!

courtesy of The Diarists

Keep the hope wide open

You have the will but you don't have enough resources or power. It's always feels sucks. But then again, I believe that every good intention will pay the best results. I'll keep praying.

What's this?

I don't feel like talking to you right now
Is that bad?
Am I bad?

Mourning

Aaaahhh pengen jalan-jalaaaaan tapi mendadak sakit :'( kenapa mesti sekarang sih kumatnyaaa? Di detik-detik terakhir liburan, rasanya pengen loncat dari jembatan aja deh! Hmmm oke cukup, gw mulai lebay..
Kayanya gw harus mulai melakukan terapi ozon (kalo ga salah itu namanya)deh yaitu berenang subuh-subuh di pantai, tepat sebelum matahari terbit..katanya udaranya paling bagus dan bisa nyembuhin asthma..tapi ga tau sih beneran efektif atau ga, belum googling lagi soalnya hehe
Pengen nyoba tapi pantai yang paling deket cuma ancol dan ga mungkin berenang di ancol yang kondisinya kya sekarang, kotor..haduuuh rempong amat deh hidup gw..tapi pengen sembuh segeraaa, besok kan hari libur terakhir, arrrrggghhhh (-̩̩-̩̩͡_-̩̩-̩̩͡)

Libur = tidur

Sedikit menyesalkan kenapa ya liburan kali ini saya jatuh sakit..alhasil dari tadi kerjaannya cuma tidur-tiduran sambil sesekali baca buku..badan rasanya lemas dan bikin males ngapa-ngapain..kata atung mungkin saya alergi bulu kucing yang berakibat saya bersin-bersin, hidung jadi mampet yang ujungnya jadi ga bisa tidur -_-"
Kalo gini rasanya ingin mencopot hidung saya dan melemparnya jauh-jauh hhh

Counting it to 3

Happy 2 y and 10 m anniversary! (♥-̮♥)
Polar hug! ♥

(♒˙⌣˙♒)

One sadness always leads to one happiness. Terms and condition : not vice versa and multiple applied.
-Dita Pranandia-

Aduh ga bisa tidur..kayanya tadi udah ngantuk akut deh, sekarang malah cerah ceria gini matanya..hmmm cerita apa ya? Sebenernya banyak banget yang bisa diceritain tapiiiii bingung gimana nulisnya..soalnya saya sendiri ga yakin mau mulai dari mana hehe kalo gitu mendingan mulai counting sheep aja deh sekarang, siapa tau nanti ketiduran dengan sendirinya..

Ga jelas ya postingan saya ini? Haha

Nitey nite :)

Mission Accomplished, Captain!

Halloooo, how's your 1st lebaran day? Mine was good and I hope you have a good time too ;p today's flight to palembang went good, everything goes on schedule..tadinya sempet worried bakalan delay gara-gara cuaca dan menurut info yang saya baca dari twitter teman-teman beberapa hari sebelum lebaran kalo penerbangan dr maskapai yg saya tumpangi sering di delay tanpa alasan jelas..bikin suudzon aja kan haha tapi ternyata penerbangan saya right on schedule, senang jadinya :)

well, ada sedikit kejadian menarik tadi, adik saya yang takut naik pesawat agak sedikit panik, soalnya penerbangan kami sedikit berguncang karena melewati daerah bercuaca buruk..walhasil selama penerbangan dia pucat pasi menahan napas dan beberapa kali mencengkram erat dengkul saya haha lucu sekaligus kasian..walopun begitu dia punya cita-cita nerusin sekolah di luar lho (amen for that)..yaya sembuhin dulu kali ya phobia terbangnya ;p

Oh saya dan keluarga saya akhirnya berhasil (sebelumnya gagal mlulu) membuat uti dan atung sangat terkejut karena kedatangan kami, memang kami sekeluarga kali ini datang tanpa sepengetahuan siapapun hehe ceritanya mau ngasih surprise..well, I guess mission accomplished! Teehee!

Dan kali ini Palembang yang biasanya bercuaca panas pun diguyur hujan, alhamdulillah ;p

The Winning Day

Minal aidin walfaizin, Happy Ied Mubarak! For those who celebrate it ;p Finally, we come to this so called winning day yaaa..As for me bulan ini benar-benar bulan penuh berkah (bulan-bulan lain juga sih tp yang ini ga tau kenapa lebih terasa ;p) daaaan mudah-mudahan kalian juga merasakannya yaaa..

Saya punya wishlist doa yang cukup panjang, yang saya tujukan kepada Yang Maha Kuasa khususnya selama ramadhan kemarin..Saya berharap saya termasuk orang-orang yang beruntung untuk dikabulkan atas setiap doanya, amin..Saya tahu pasti Tuhan itu Maha Mendengar dan Maha Baik (◦'⌣'◦)

Anyway I'm wondering, kenapa ya suasana Lebaran itu selalu diiringi rasa khawatir apakah kita bisa menikmatinya lagi tahun depan dan tahun-tahun berikutnya..bahkan isi ceramah sholat Ied pun ga pernah absen untuk membahas hal yang satu itu..Kenapa yaa? Saya tau mungkin salah satu alasannya supaya kita bersyukur bisa melewati ramadhan kali ini tapiiiii we all already know that kaaan..yah mungkin hanya sekedar mengingatkan betapa kita termasuk orang-orang yg beruntung..cuma sayanya aja yg nyinyir hahahaha

Well, terlepas dari itu, Lebaran buat saya berarti saatnya berpetualang bersama keluarga! Keluarga inti saya yang jumlahnya 6 orang ini, amat sangat jarang sekali tampil (sok performer haha) lengkap..jadiiii ini kesempatan yg sayang kalo dilewatkan tanpa liburan bersama ;p
Dan lebaran kali ini we're going to Palembang, not a new place to visit sih and it's 3 days only, but I know we're all sooo excited..I can't wait to be hugged by uti and atung, kinda miss them actually :') dan as usual selama perjalanan nanti akan banyak kejadian konyol yg dilakukan oleh keluarga saya haha well, I've a plane to catch and I should getting ready from now..so I see you later then, maybe with some photos from my quick holiday ;p

Happy Lebaran and Happy holiday! Enjoy your day, mate! Cheers!

a place called office

have to be extra careful from now on. shall not trust anyone.
if you want to survive, watch your own back. this is a warning.
do not ignore it.

just saying

courtesy of cattycamehome

Life is full of beauty. Notice it.
Notice the bumble bee, the small child and the smiling faces.
Smell the rain and feel the wind.
Live your life to the fullest potential and fight for your dreams.
-Ashley Smith-

anyway, Happy September! :D

forgive me for posting too many song's lyric lately..it's just happen..
well, i guess it's because i don't have any interesting stories to share at the moment or it's just simply because i choose not to share it with you hehe
chao amigos! :D

Mengutip dari mbak Katy Perry

a nice song i must say :)

You think I'm pretty
Without any makeup on
You think I'm funny
When I tell the punchline wrong
I know you get me
So I let my walls come down, down

My heart stops
When you look at me
Just one touch
Now baby I believe
This is real
So take a chance and
Don't ever look back
Don't ever look back

We drove to Cali
And got drunk on the beach
Got a motel and
Built a fort out of sheets
I finally found you
My missing puzzle piece
I'm complete

Let's go all the way tonight
No regrets, just love
We can dance, until we die
You and I, we'll be young forever

You make me feel like I'm livin' a
Teenage dream

I'mma get your heart racing
In my skin-tight jeans
Be your teenage dream tonight
Let you put your hands on me
In my skin-tight jeans
Be your teenage dream tonight

-Teenage Dream-

pouring thought.

there's so much to think. there's so much what ifs following.
things happen beyond control. not expecting the impact.
pessimism appears along the way. don't know what to do.
looking for solutions that's good for everyone's sake.
without putting aside what one have been dreaming.
can everything be done in the end? let's hope and pray.

can we, girls, really have the patience to wait? errrr

strangely sweet

-Brand New Colony-
I'll be the grapes fermented,
Bottled and served with the table set in my finest suit
Like a perfect gentlemen
I'll be the fire escape that's bolted to the ancient brick
Where you will sit and contemplate your day

I'll be the waterwings that save you if you start drowning
In an open tab when your judgment's on the brink
I'll be the phonograph that plays your favorite
Albums back as you're lying there drifting off to sleep...
I'll be the platform shoes and undo what heredity's done to you...
You won't have to strain to look into my eyes
I'll be your winter coat buttoned and zipped straight to the throat
With the collar up so you won't catch a cold

I want to take you far from the cynics in this town
And kiss you on the mouth
We'll cut our bodies free from the tethers of this scene,
Start a brand new colony
Where everything will change,
We'll give ourselves new names (identities erased)
The sun will heat the grounds
Under our bare feet in this brand new colony
Everything will change

If Only

"Your job is to be yourself, and my job is to love you no matter what" - Burt Hummel

if only everyone you meet in this whole world thinks and feels like that, i believe everything will be way much easier and simpler..no need pretending to be the person you're not, to be called as a selfish biatch, whatsoever..maybe just maybe there will be no heartache, no hurt feelings..

i hope someday i can say that simple yet powerful line to every single persons that i care the most, genuinely and sincerely..and i do hope someone will do the same for me..

that's not an unreachable wish, rite?

Shoot!

i forget to bring my external hard disc :( it's means no good music for today, since i dont save many songs in this office's computo..well, let's just hope that i'll survive this lazy Monday *sigh*

Back sound : Blur - Tender

Pyramid of Desire

Melinda Boyce

LOL :D

Faith it is

writer / CC BY-NC-ND 3.0

I'm not crying

Hmmm here we go again, repeating that same little crap called self ego..
I think now I know why we can't move forward, yet..I'll hold my tears then :(

sing a song!

The Universal

This is the next century
Where the universal's free
You can find it anywhere
Yes, the future has been sold
Every night we're gone
And to karaoke songs
How we like to sing a long
Although the words are wrong

It really, really, really could happen
Yes, it really, really, really could happen
When the days they seem to fall through you, well just let them go

No one here is alone, satellites in every home
Yes the universal's here, here for everyone
Every paper that you read
Says tomorrow is your lucky day
Well, here's your lucky day

It really, really, really could happen
Yes, it really, really, really could happen
When the days they seem to fall through you, well just let them go

Well, it really, really, really could happen
Yes, it really, really, really could happen
When the days they seem to fall through you, well just let them go

Just let them go

***************************************************

a mood booster for my friday the 13th..setelah kurang lebih 5 km kemacetan di tol jorr dengan durasi 1 jam injek-lepas kopling lagu ini lumayan jadi penghibur..and you should watch Blur live performance at Hyde Park 2009 (reunion concert) performing this song as an anti climax..speechless! it's so beautiful that i almost cry when i saw it hehe
oh and alex james, gosh, he's uber cool! even my boyfie wants to look like him..yayaya in your dreams ngio hahaha

iyess..

A successful marriage requires falling in love many times,
always with the same person

-Mignon Mclaughlin-

Happy Ramadhan

Selamat Menjalankan Ibadah di Bulan Ramadhan :D

chance for a journey..

sedang merancang sebuah perjalanan impian..tolong hilangkan keraguan saya ya Allah..
take the risk and don't think too much..it must be worth it, you know that dit!
Bismillah..semoga bisa terwujud, amin!

cliche but true

cloudy monday

am in the mood for chillin..accompanied by great music :)

my today's play list..
1. Lykke Li - Little Bit
2. Lucy Schwartz - Gravity
3. Sarasvati - Cut and Paste
4. Imogen Heap - Wait It Out
5. Hellogoodbye - The Thought Gives Me The Creeps
6. Weezer - Perfect Situation
7. Mew - Zookeepers
8. Stars - Your Ex-Lover Is Dead
9. Alkaline Trio feat Tegan Quinn - Wake Up Exhausted
10. Anberlin - Amsterdam

Enjoy your Monday, peeps :D

Musibah oh musibah

Gw sudah menunggu-nunggu hari jumat ini datang, kenapa? Soalnya hari jumat adalah hari makan-makan sedunia hehe ga deng hari ini di kantor ada corfin idol semacam acara makan-makan dan karaoke bersama untuk menyambut puasa haha bukannya pengajian malah hura-hura yayaya..terus uda semangat mau yoga juga nanti sore gara-gara minggu lalu ditiadakan..eeeeehhh emang musibah ga bisa diduga ya datengnya mobil gw mogok aja gitu, di tol pulak! Ngek ngok! Hadeeeeeeeh amsyong..panik lah gw! telpon sana sini dengan mata sedikit berkaca-kaca mau nangis haha untung masih ada temen gw yang baik hati mau menolong..makasih ya Git you are my hero today hehe nanti eke traktir deyh yaaaa ;p

Yah kata orang ada hikmah dibalik setiap peristiwa, jadi hikmahnya mobil gw mogok adalah satu gw jadi tau yang namanya fuel pump itu bentuknya gimana haha dua mulai sekarang isi bensin pake pertamax klo perlu isi bensin di shell! Tiga gw jadi ada alasan bolos kerja (tp rugi sih bolos hari ini haha)

Jadiii hari ini dites kesabaran sama yang Maha Kuasa, berusaha untuk ga banyak ngeluh walopun sekarang pas gw nulis ini, gw lagi jadi anak nongkrong di pinggir tol pake batik modis (cieee) plus heels ditemani dengan udara super panas..eh ini sama aja ngeluh ya? Hehe gpp ya dikit doang kok ngeluhnya..

Udah ah mau lanjut nongkrong, bye!

Question

silent question in my head..what am i supposed to feel?
what am i supposed to feel?

Merinding,

efek denger lagu-lagu Sarasvati..merinding gara-gara bagus banget suaranya sekaligus merinding ketakutan hahaha oh dan gw tadi berhasil nonton video pas launching Story of Peter via youtube (gw baru tau kalo ternyata youtube bisa diakses dr jam 11, yay! walopun jam 1 lewat uda tewas lagi sih -.-"), gw merinding seada-adanya selama gw nonton video itu, sama kaya waktu nonton Imogen Heap live! kok ada ya manusia suaranya bagus dan menenangkan hati gitu? ckckck looks like am going to be her huge fans haha dan langsunglah gw bertekad bahwa gw harus nonton setiap gigsnya Sarasvati di Jakarta! HARUS! daaaan ternyata oh ternyata 3 bulan ke depan Sarasvati mau rehat dulu, ngek ngok! yaudah sih yaaaa..tapi jadi sedih hiks (mulai lebay) pokoknya kalo sarasvati manggung di jakarta gw harus hadir!

Let's Participate!!! :D

iseng-iseng berhadiaaaaah, ayo berpartisipasi! yah gw sih belum pernah menang kuis apapun hahaha tapi ga ada ruginya kan dicoba toh gampang tinggal klik-isi form-enter selesai deh..ga ribet dan repot (gw juga males kalo ribet-ribet) sooooo what are you waiting for? who knows we'll be the winner, cheers!

ayo click --> Aku Cinta Indonesia

skinny genes

currently listening to eliza doolitle - skinny genes..nada lagunya lucuuuuk, coba deh dengerin dan perhatiin liriknya, witty and bitchy-bitchy gitu hahaha trus kalo lagi iseng search deh video clipnya di youtube berhubung di kantor tercintah ini youtube dan 4shared di banned jadi yaaaa cari sendiri linknya, okeee? hehe oh btw i heart her orange jumpsuit, simple and cute, me want one! teehee!

You should listen to this and buy the CD!

A must listen album from Risa Saraswati..probably you've heard about her before, she's a former vocalist of the-well-known elektronicpop's band (do guess! hehe)..now she's stand on her own feet and called her solo project Sarasvati (taken from her Sanskrit's name)..her songs reminds me of Tim Burton's movies..spooky (moreover if you know the story behind it ;p) and made you feel goosebumps all over, yet it's beautiful on it's own way and not forget to mention her angelic voice..aaaahhh you must listen to it by yourself and feel the experience! so i say, go to the music store now and do buy the CD, Sarasvati - Story of Peter, quick! :D

oh to read some news about her click here

Sing with me!

You're standing there alone
And so am I
But I want you here
By my side
Your smile at me
Is everything
The staring game
That song of love.

I look you in the eyes
I try to read you thoughts
I ask you to go with me
To a far off place.
Oh.

I look you in the eyes
I try to read you thoughts
I ask you to go with me
To a far off place.

You and me dancing the night away
You can feel my heart beating so hard.
We look eye to eye
And I'm swept away.
On a moonlit walk on the beach
Watching the sunrise for the first time
I'm in a trance
From that one slowdance.

You're standing there alone
And so am I
But I want you there
By my side
Your smile at me
Is everything
The staring game
That song of love.

I look you in the eyes
I try to read your thoughts
I ask you to go with me
To a far off place.
Oh.

I look you in the eyes
I try to read your thoughts
I ask you to go with me
To a far off place.

You and me dancing the night away
You can feel my heart beating so hard.
We look eye to eye
And I'm swept away.
On a moonlit walk on the beach
Watching the sunrise for the first time
I'm in a trance
From that one slowdance.

We don't have to talk,
We don't have to laugh at all
I just want you here with me

We don't have to talk,
We don't have to laugh at all
I just want to be
You and me

You and me dancing the night away
You can feel my hearting beating so hard
We look eye to eye
And im swept away.
On a moonlit walk on the beach
Watching the sunrise for the first time
I'm in a trance
From that one slowdance.

Rufio - One Slow Dance

YAY!

finally got the book that I've been searching for long..and what book is that? I'll tell you all later when the time's right hehe sok misterius..

Anyway I've a great saturday nite..how about you?

Oh take look at our bang, cute isn't it? Hahaha ngarep

Currently..

mood : bad PMS mood
craving for : boyfriend, massive polar hugs and cinzeo's chocolate cake
listening to : when we first met | hellogoodbye

Doubutsu Uranai

DOUBUTSU URANAI is based on the "Four Pillars of Destiny" derived from the Ying/Yang theory of five elements that has been told throughout Asia from ancient times. And later, the aspects of social-psychology and behavioral psychology were included. Analyzing the information drawn out of thorough and complete monitoring, it has also been statistically tested.

iseng-iseng ga berhadiah, i've checked mine and these are the result..

please underline the "You tend to change your mind quickly. And because you like changes, people think you as temperamental" part..see, now you know that i'm not that hotheaded, i just LIKE CHANGES a lot hahahaha teehee

if you dont have anything important to do and interested to find your own results, please kindly scroll your mouse and click Doubutsu Uranai

so that's mine, what's yours? do share! :D

:'(

Hang on there dear, everything's gonna be okay. I know you can handle this. Go through it one by one, step by step. Take as much time as you need. I'll be on your back. You can always find me. Polar hugs.

PS.
I'm sorry I can't do anything to make you feel better.

I hate it when I realize that I'm just an outsider :'(

major cute!

walk..walk into my trap

Love is..
being strong and forgetting about everything else when i'm with you

yes it is! *polar hugs*

this one below is my fave! hahahaha

di sela-sela waktu (sok) sibuk, i found this cute blog on tumblr named HJ Story..
it's some kind of from-boy-to- girl's blog..the author creating this blog for his girlfriend and it's all began with a bunch little photo sms messages that he sent to his girlfriend for fun..major cute!
i really love his work and it's successfully turn my face green with envy haha

hey boyfie if you by any chance read this, please made something like that for me! maksa plus ngarep hahahaha

Are We There Yet?

They say that home is where the heart is
I guess I haven't found my home
And we keep driving round in circles
Afraid to call this place our own

And are we there yet?

They say there's linings made of silver
Folded inside each raining cloud
Well, we need someone to deliver
Our silver lining now

And are we there yet?
And are we there yet?
And are we there yet?
Home, home, home
Home, home, home

They say you're really not somebody
Until somebody else loves you
Well, I am waiting to make somebody
Somebody soon

And are we there yet?
And are we there yet?
And are we there yet?
Home, home, home
Home, home, home

Where you will lie on the rug
While I play with the dog
And it won't be too much
'Cause this is too much
'Cause this is too much for me to hold
This is too much for me to hold

Home, home, home
And are we there yet?
And are we there yet?
And are we there yet?

Home, home, home
Home, home, home, home

And are we there yet?
And are we there yet?
And are we there yet?
And are we there?

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i guess we both feel this way whenever we talk about that topic, right? or it's only me?

haduh salah banget dengerin Ingrid Michaelson in such rainy day like today..well, blame the weather then *sigh*

this speech is talking and it's TRUE..

i read some speeches from Anna Quindlen (a former journalist and opinion columnist in New York Times whose won the Pulitzer Prize in 1992, a full-time mother and a full-time novelist) and this speech below is leaving me a shoot right in the head.. it's struck to my vein and give me a question which remains unanswered "am i who i think i am?"

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"The thing that is really hard, and really amazing, is giving up on being perfect and beginning the work of becoming yourself.

This is more difficult, because there is no zeitgeist to read, no template to follow, no mask to wear. Set aside what your friends expect, what your parents demand, what your acquaintances require. Set aside the messages this culture sends, through its advertising, its entertainment, its disdain and its disapproval, about how you should behave.

Set aside the old traditional notion of female as nurturer and male as leader; set aside, too, the new traditional notions of female as superwoman and male as oppressor. Begin with that most terrifying of all things, a clean slate. Then look, every day, at the choices you are making, and when you ask yourself why you are making them, find this answer: for me, for me. Because they are who and what I am, and mean to be.

This will always be your struggle whether you are twenty-one or fifty-one. I know this from experience. When I quit the New York Times to be a full-time mother, the voices of the world said that I was nuts. When I quit it again to be a full-time novelist, they said I was nuts again. But I am not nuts. I am happy. I am successful on my own terms. Because if your success is not on your own terms, if it looks good to the world but does not feel good in your heart, it is not success at all. Remember the words of Lily Tomlin: If you win the rat race, you're still a rat.

Remember yourself, from the days when you were younger and rougher and wilder, more scrawl than straight line. Remember all of yourself, the flaws and faults as well as the many strengths. Carl Jung once said, "If people can be educated to see the lowly side of their own natures, it may be hoped that they will also learn to understand and to love their fellow men better. A little less hypocrisy and a little more tolerance toward oneself can only have good results in respect for our neighbors, for we are all too prone to transfer to our fellows the injustice and violence we inflict upon our own natures."

But this is worse: that someday, sometime, you will be somewhere, maybe on a day like today--a berm overlooking a pond in Vermont, the lip of the Grand Canyon at sunset. Maybe something bad will have happened: you will have lost someone you loved, or failed at something you wanted to succeed at very much.

And sitting there, you will fall into the center of yourself. You will look for that core to sustain you. If you have been perfect all your life, and have managed to meet all the expectations of your family, your friends, your community, your society, chances are excellent that there will be a black hole where your core ought to be.

Don't take that chance. Begin to say no to the Greek chorus that thinks it knows the parameters of a happy life when all it knows is the homogenization of human experience. Listen to that small voice from inside you, that tells you to go another way. George Eliot wrote, "It is never too late to be what you might have been." It is never too early, either. And it will make all the difference in the world. Take it from someone who has left the backpack full of bricks far behind. Every day feels light as a feather."

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to read the complete speech please kindly click here

i'll hold your hand..

courtesy of kocony

Craving for

*****

some quote from the book..

"Life is a game, boy. Life is a game that one plays according to the rules."

"Yes, sir. I know it is. I know it."
Game, my ass. Some game. If you get on the side where all the hot-shots are, then it's a game, all right — I'll admit that. But if you get on the other side, where there aren't any hot-shots, then what's a game about it? Nothing. No game.

you gotta..

but why it's so hard to be grateful? accept things the way they really are? :'(

♥ joyeux anniversaire ♥

Love is a special word and I use it only when I mean it,
you say the word too much and it becomes cheap.

-Ray Charles-

i ♥ you, polar hug!

random blab

Waking up with strange thought this morning, I want to be able to cook just like my mom..how weird is that? hahaha

Happy Birthday Mamio!

We wish you always healthy, get tons of happiness and stay forever young hehe
You're the best mom in the world! We ♥ you mom..enjoy your cake, smooches!

dedicated to you ♥

daily conversation..

him: ngingmaaaaangg
me : ngiiiiioooooonnggg
him: ni beruang lagi apa niii?
me : belum ada kerjaan, kamu lagi apaaaa?
him: kerjaan aku lumayan banyak hiks peyuuuuuuuk
me : peyuuuuuuuk

-end-

every morning in every day with the same person and the same line..well, with a lil' variation sometimes..a small and simple conversation that we do, another routine in our day..it's look like a boring conversation right? haha but you know what, i never get bored with that, it's never failed to bring little smile in my face and if one day you're not giving me this small convo i'll completely mad at you hahaha

♥♥♥ happy 2 years 8 months minus 1 day anniversary ♥♥♥

ps.
our anniversary's suppose to be tomorrow, but screw that i want to post this right now! hihihi

Some truth..

hopefully my umbrella's big enough to hold the rain :)

there's nothing wrong if you want to be perfect

yes, there's nothing wrong about it and why i suddenly come with this topic is because few days ago my friend was busy tweeting about how he hate girls whos busy dieting..well, in short he said that no matter how hard you go on dieting if you fugly, you'll remain fugly, there will be no difference full stop..oh okaaay, i've heard about that before but what makes it worst is when i told him that he's so harsh, he reply to me and said "bukan gitu, males aja liat yang ribet2 gitu, klo ledom sih gpp" and i was like hmm okaaaay, kenapa kalo model boleh sedangkan cewe biasa ga boleh? that's one harsh thought..i think every woman (and even man) have the right to go on diet as long as they really need it..you don't need to be 'someone' just to do some diet..eventho i admit that sometimes girls gone crazy while dealing with diet thing, i'm not gonna against it but in the end all they want is just to look more proper, have a good shape, or in other word feel more comfortable with their own body..and once again there's nothing wrong about it..isn't it?
so, i'm asking you now, why you bother wear braces? is it gonna make you look more handsome? huh? see, can you see the similarity? no offense, at least i dont say you fugly, cheers :D

sebenernya ini ga penting juga sih dibahas tapi ga tau kenapa gw pengen nulis aja disini hahaha

some quote :)

"Sometimes you have to put aside one dream in order to fulfill your other dreams.
But don’t be afraid mate, you can always take back that dream anytime you want.
After all its your dream and i believe you will not forget your dreams."

-Dita Pranandia-

ps. photo's courtesy of thresca

LOL, soooo true..

for more witty stuff click here
xoxo

Early in the morning,

i'm at my office right now and yes, i'm waaaaaayyy too early since the office hour start at 8 o'clock so here i am blabbing around in my long lost friend which i miss btw hehe

well, i just wanna share you about one of my dreams which is to have a small library or a room that is full of books in my own house.. a place that i can stay all day long there just to read or gazing through the book racks.. a place to run, leaving all the troublesome world behind.. a place for chill and relax.. in short, my little heaven in earth.. oh, i'm soooo will make it someday in the future and it will be ubeeeeerrrr nice :)
someday in the future, someday in the future *promise to myself*

so i'm doing this so called 'research' haha for what kind of library that i want for my future house and found these pictures below.. they quite representing what i want, soooo take a sneak will ya? enjoy! ;p

this one is my fave! love it mucho

all pictures are taken from bookshelves