Welcome July!

oh my gosh it's July already..i can't believe how times's flies so fast! I'm not even making any significant change for myself yet!! well, maybe i'm bit too much..there's must be a little tiny change in me, i believe..there's must be! haha

so what's happening in my life lately..let's see..
- my Korean lessons getting difficult each days..there's a lot of memorizing thing, which is not e.a.s.y! i tried not to twist my tongue every time i speak the language haha
- I'm swimming regularly now..so i think i became more healthy than before..
- i still can't drive! crap! it's mainly because i don't practice at all last month..i must do some catch up for the rest of this month..just hits the road! talk less do more, yeah right..
- hoping to be hired soon..still in progress..wish me everybody!
- there's some tense-up problems to deal with in my family..I'm a little bit scared, but i believe we'll gonna find a way to get through this..God please help me and my family..
- my boredom has gone away..not completely..but that's fine enough, at least I'm not being fussy about the ugly mood i had these past days..
- I've got new excitement from some projects..can't tell you what for now, so you'd better put your curiosity back..I'll write it another time, maybe =)
- I'll have to share my room with my sister again, cause she's decided to continue her study here in jakarta..there's must be lot of cats fight between us in the future lol
- hmm what else? i'm doing pretty well on saving-money-and-not-shop-randomly thing lately..which is very good in my case..
- and the least thing (finally!) I'm managed to woke up early these past days! well, a hour early to be honest..but it's still can be considered as good progress, isn't it? haha

hope this whole month full of bless and joy! kisskiss

No need to hide!

Today, fashion is really about sensuality, how a woman feels on the inside.
In the '80s women used suits with exaggerated shoulders and waists to make a strong impression.
Women are now more comfortable with themselves and their bodies, they no longer feel the need to hide behind their clothes

-Donna Karan-

my apologize to you..

if you ever reads this post, i just want you to know that

i regrets all the things that I've done to you, last night particularly..I'm really sorry for pulling out your patience to the limits, to made you doing all that bad things..I'm apologize, literally..
and for now i'm wondering, is it too much if i asked you to not doing that again to me? i think it's hit me pretty hard..i don't want to feel it again (here's come my egos!)..can i really asked you that?

when i said that I don't know you yet, you know that's not true..i know you very well like you know me..but at that times it's seems so hard to pretends that i know you..i can't believe that I'm finally facing that other side of you..you finally loose your patience..well after all you're just human with feelings.. :)

so let's stop having this always-come-back-and-scracthy arguments between us..we've both just being selfish again..hurting each others..

i do realize that I'm the one with the huge egos and less understanding..not you..and you know that I've tried to make it less every single day..but sometimes I'm losing directions and get lost inside of it..
maybe i need more times, we need more times to work things out between us..i know we can get through this..i still believe on us..

anyway these words from Tori Amos sort of representing what I'm feeling for you..

When the cold of the night has washed away, all I want is to wake in your arms

Ini nih yang kadang suka susah..

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Deep Condolences..

A brief candle, both ends burning
An endless mile, a bus wheel turning
A friend to share the lonesome times
A handshake and a sip of wine
So say it loud and let it ring
We are all a part of everything
The future, present and the past
Fly on proud bird
You're free at last
-Charlie Daniels-

it's a huge lost..rest in peace Mr King of Pop..

sediiiiiihhhh x(

Congratulations!

so I've just finished my Korean exams yesterday and last Monday..i thought the exams will be very hard, and it made me feel anxious..ternyata oh ternyata the exams is not that bad haha I'm doing pretty good i guess..I'm kinda relieved when the exams week is over..because i can straight away go sleazy lazy again haha but you know what, this exams thing is actually made me kinda busy and forget about the boredom inside of me for a while..so it's a nice distraction i must say, thanks to the exams! hehe

oh i want to congrats all my friends who passed their hearing test and finally get the Sarjana Ekonomi title behinds their name..CONGRATULATIONS!
but this means soon enough we will (or have to) kill each other to get a job..it's a war outhere my dear friends..be aware! haha lebay..welcome to the real world mate!! (hope we're not have to kill each other..soon)

If i'm a PC/video games..

if i'm a pc or video games i would be an adventures detective kind of games..games yang sepanjang permainan kerjaannya complete a mission, finding things and resolve some puzzle haha..no particular reason sih, mungkin tanpa gw sadari gw pengen banget jadi detektif haha soalnya gw suka penasaran kalo dapet info-info seru (gossip for example hehe) yang ga lengkap, pasti bakal gw selidiki sampai gw mendapatkan informasi selengkap-lengkapnya haha

ga tau kenapa gw addict banget sama games-games kaya gitu..contohnya games petualangan yang berantem-berantemnya dikit dan lebih ke yang resolve puzzle di setiap missionnya kaya Syberia (visual graphicnya keren banget!), Dreamfall, Bratz (my favourite haha), etc..trus kalo yang nyari-nyari barang kaya Mystery Case Files series, Agatha Christie Death On The Nile, trus Dreamday Honeymoon series, etc..
semakin susah semakin bagus dan semakin gw betah berlama-lama membuang waktu to finished the games! haha

kadang kalo uda stuck dan ga nemu barang yang diminta atau ga bisa resolve the puzzle, gw bisa stressed out (saking capeknya muter otak) dan gemes sendiri haha..this games things should be fun right? i mean the games was created to entertain people, isn't it? kok ya dibikin susah banget banget..walopun akhirnya gw bisa nyelesaiin juga sih..dengan bantuan game cheat tentunya haha padahal ya lebih puas kalo namatinnya ga pake cheat..it would make you feel like you're the most genius person in the world haha lebay deh gw..

sebenernya sih gw suka games berjenis seperti itu karena i'm plain stupid, ga terampil sama sekali main games yang memerlukan banyak fighting actions hehe makanya gw ga suka games yang berantem-berantem gitu..udah gitu ya pasti pencetannya banyak banget, mau ngeluarin jurus aja pencetannya beda-beda..bikin bingung! haha

eh btw postingan gw kali ini penting banget yaaa haha