For Mamio..

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!

i know it's a bit late..but it wont stopped me for feeling grateful to my moms..so here we go..

I'm thanking you mom for always be there right by my side..listening to all my blabbers..thanks for guiding me all the time..always be the first person I'm turn to if anything happens..without you i know i can't make it..can't become what i am today..thank you for always saying your opinions out loud and being honest about everything..i often doesn't obey all your commands and maybe I'm not a good child because of that..but you know mom, I'll always try to make you proud in my own way..not for proofing anything, i'm doing it just because i love you (so much!)..even you can become soooo fussy sometimes..it's okay i can deal with that..haha

i love you mom!

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Quote..lol

Me? I'm dishonest, and a dishonest man you can always trust to be dishonest. Honestly. It's the honest ones you want to watch out for, because you can never predict when they're going to do something incredibly...stupid.

-Jack Sparrow-

Maddening Shroud

Sometimes I like to get away from this maddening shroud
Sometimes I'll have you know, it's all insane
Maybe it's time for me to jack it in
Maybe it's time for me to track it in
Maybe it's time for me to halt...

Oh, I've got a good mind to throw it all away
Throw it all away
Throw it all away
After all, what is it worth?

Sometimes I like to get away from the saddening crowd
Sometimes I feel my life is all in vain
Maybe it's time for me to jack it in
Maybe it's time for me to track it in
Maybe it's time for me to halt...

Oh, I've got a good mind to throw it all away
Throw it all away
Throw it all away
After all, what is it worth?

Some days my strength walks out
Some days I can't go out
It is for real
We can walk about
We can work it over and over and over...

I've got a good mind to throw it all away...

i'm dealing with this maddening shroud situations for whole my life..and maybe, just maybe i'll get away from that.. someday..haha

Hot Hot Summer

i heart Stella Mccartney new exclusive summer collection for net-a-porter..
her designs are very dreamy and playful..she's using pale/nude colours which made me fall in love at the first time i saw the collections haha
i really like the theme and the print she's using for the collections..clouds, kites and blooms..soooo gorgeous!
oh the print is actually an original print made by Sir Peter Blake, a british pop artist..who is best known for his design of the sleeve for The Beatles's album Sgt. Pepper's Lonely Hearts Club Band..wow isn't it? haha

here's the outfit that i'm craving for from her collections..

adorable dresses!

check out those clouds..irresistible! oh and the colours too!

and here's some mix-match i made through polyvore..

if you want to look the whole collections click here

Chin Up - Copeland

With your eyes closed,
Watching a strange show
Play out in your head,
But you were smiling somehow
And your day froze,
And everyone in it
Sat still as a rose,
But we were moving somehow.

Back to where we started,
Losing who we were,
Maybe we should only
Tip a bottle back to keep us filled up.

Back to where we started,
Losing who we were,
Everybody knows that,
You’d break your neck to keep your chin up.

Open your eyes,
And the drops come,
And a snail raced down to your neck,
And looked up,
But you were smiling somehow.

Back to where we started,
Losing who we were,
Maybe we should only
Tip a bottle back to keep us filled up.

Back to where we started,
Losing who we were,
Everybody knows that
You’d break your neck to keep your chin up.

i feel myself a little bit comfort after listen to this song..
maybe i should only tip a bottle back to keep me filled up huh? naaayyy.. ;p

Misrable

i just got back from my quick vacation to bandung..actually it even can't be called a vacation since i'm going there for one night only, to pickup my mamio..i'm quite excited indeed..going out of town..breathing new air..escaping from home for a while..haha but suddenly i found it not very fun as i thought before..it turns out being little less enjoyable..it's just not exciting anymore..i'm being very grumpy all the time..having a roller-coaster mood..and the surprising thing is i'm also not in the mood for shopping..a very rare conditions in my case since i'm usually can't resist the charms of getting the money out from my wallet (or mamio's wallet :p) to buy something even if it's not very necessary to my needs haha
i've been a very bad shopping companion for mamio, my sist and my aunt that day..i'm such a jerk..forgive me..

i don't know why i'm acting like that..i'm feeling sad and emotional..feeling empty inside..and feels like there's a big waves of sadness taking over my cheerful part aside far on the corner, locked it and throw the key to a place i can't reach it..seems like happiness is cheating on me..doing something bad behind my back..i know it's bit too much but that's what i felt back then..

so why i'm being like this when everything is actually fine? nothing's gone wrong..no specific matters that make me sad or feel all that shitty emotions..why? why? why?
i think that's the answer i can't find out for now or maybe i will never find it :(

oh God, please help me through this..

WHAT?

why is everything seems to be so f*****g annoying today??
stop teasing me!!