the thoughts that give me the creeps

recently I've been listening to not-so-new hellogoodbye song..the thoughts that give me the creeps..
I'm wondering what's mine..and it's hard just to think about it since there's so many thoughts laying in my head..mostly unimportant things..haha

what is the thoughts that give me the creeps??
maybe the answer is losing my bancil..ga penting haha (there's something wrong with my brain for sure)
but it's true i can't ever imagine i would go to sleep without my bancil..
my bancil is actually my since-baby pillow..haha
it's very shapeless and flabby since i owned it when i was a baby girl..and i never added the kapuk (i dont know how to spell it in english..forgive my lack would you? hehe) anymore..

He (yes i reckon my pillow as a he ;p) always there through my bad and good times..
i share my tears with him..something that i rarely do to other people..even to my very best friend..
i feel comfortable just looking him there on my bed..laying still (i must be insane haha)

my parents do tried to get rid off that pillow from me..
when i'm still in my young age..they said "we'll give you a new pillow or let us add more kapuk on your pillow" but i refused it..i think that it would not be the same anymore..i dont want a different pillow..i already satisfied with this one haha
when i'm on my age now..they said "look..your not a child anymore..are you gonna keep that pillow until you married? don't be so childish" and my answer is YES..
the man who will be my future husband must accept my bancil too..haha
finally they don't bother anymore..they just like shook their head..speechless ;p

now every time i go out of town..my families always asking me.."where's your lovely-hunny-bunny bancil?" or if they see my bancil they'll say "ckck why you always bring that smelly pillow? have you ever grow up?"
hahahhahahaha

so if my bancil suddenly disappear i would become crazy for sure..haha
i can't even imagine if that really happens..it just creeps me ;p

anyway I've post the video for you below..this is the live version..
i'll post the lyrics in different post..
enjoy ;p