Yesterday is the day

I've been very busy picking up my phone yesterday, it won't stop ringing..the thing is because 3 of my friends having a problems at exactly the same time and they all need me to hear their stories..what a fuss! don't get me wrong, i used to be a very good listeners but this time, hands up..i just can't handle it anymore..i think i loss my capability to hear, or maybe my brains is too freeze to give a command for hearing..i can feel my ears burning since it was a 3-4 hours endless phoning..even though i already switching the phone constantly to the left and the right ears..haaa it's very hectic day for my ears! i can't even pay attention to my bf fully..since I'm busy talking on the phone..thanks God his been busy playing some game and surfing the net..but it doesn't stop me to feel sorry towards him..

Please calm down a little girls..i know you're facing difficult and hard times in your life at this moment..and you know that I'll always there for you, supporting you..i can assure you that.. it's not that i don't care about your problems or don't want to hear all your blabber and stuff..hell no! you know i would never do that..it's just i need a tiny little space to breath for a moment, resting my mind and my ears..I'll not going anywhere far..i hope you understand (i know you will!)..

for the meantime all i can say is please help yourself a favor, do anything that will made you feel better..it's okay if you want to cry all night out and wake up with puffy eyes, having total make over, go shopping or even cursing to your ex's bf/boss/at everything..pleased yourself in the good way..i believe you can do that..just like saint loco's said..

"Santai saja kawan. Ikuti kata hati biarkan sedihmu berlalu. Kau pasti bisa.
Menjadi suatu hari dengan pagi yang baru. Tenang saja kawan. Hadapilah semua.
Kau harus bersabar. Semua indah pada waktunya"

Everything gonna be okay and you'll put a brightly smile on your face again!! i love you girls..xoxo

Election Day !

I'm using my rights to vote! Hope the best team win, for better Indonesia! i hope so..yaaaaaayyyyyy
v(^o^)v

the ugly and long lasting purple ink as proof

Looking back on that day

I started to write this blogs 2 months after my graduation day and never post anything about how i feel back then..so when i hear this song by Sheila on 7 played in the radio, it's reminds me again about my graduation day and quite representing how i feel for being graduated..leave college life behind..taking my own way to face the real jungle outhere..

hmmm i'm kinda missed that moment actually..if only i can turn back the time..

Sebuah Kisah Klasik Untuk Masa Depan

Jabat tanganku, mungkin untuk yang terakhir kali
Kita berbincang tentang memori di masa itu
Peluk tubuhku usapkan juga air mataku
Kita terharu seakan tidak bertemu lagi

Bersenang-senanglah
Kar'na hari ini yang 'kan kita rindukan
Di hari nanti sebuah kisah klasik untuk masa depan

Bersenang-senanglah
Kar'na waktu ini yang 'kan kita banggakan di hari tua

Sampai jumpa kawanku
S'moga kita selalu
Menjadi sebuah kisah klasik untuk masa depan

Bersenang-senanglah
Kar'na hari ini yang 'kan kita rindukan
Di hari nanti...

Mungkin diriku masih ingin bersama kalian
Mungkin jiwaku masih haus sanjungan kalian

Silly thought

Kemaren siang atau lebih tepatnya tadi siang (cause i'm writing this post at 2 o'clock in the morning) pas gw berangkat les..gw melihat pemandangan di dalam angkot yang mungkin sebenernya biasa aja, ga aneh sama sekali..tapi ga tau kenapa it's getting my interest..jadi ada sebuah keluarga terdiri dari ibu, bapak dan 2 anaknya di dalam angkot itu..gw duduk persis di depan mereka..otomatis arah pandangan gw ke mereka..dan gw melihat mereka really looks happy dan becanda-becanda riang gitu satu sama lain! padahal udaranya lagi panas banget dan tau sendiri lah gimana kondisi di dalam angkot yang hampir penuh di saat panas..tapi mereka keliatannya fine-fine aja, mukanya tetep ceria ga kepanasan kaya gw hehe and i don't know why when i see their face, suddenly i feel envy with their closeness and joyful relations..bukannya gw sama keluarga gw not having a good families relationship kaya mereka yaa..gw belum pernah sama sekali naik angkot bareng seluruh keluarga gw lengkap dan sepanjang jalan gw jadi mikir kalo misalnya keluarga gw yang naik angkot itu tadi siang bakalan keliatan se happy mereka ga ya?
instantly, I've this ridiculous but exciting thought popping out from my head..gw pengen naik angkot bareng keluarga gw! sekali aja! pengen ngerasain gimana rasanya naik angkot bareng nyokap bokap kakak dan 2 adik gw..ga perlu jauh-jauh perginya cukup keliling kompleks..pasti bakalan seru since that day bakalan jadi hari pertama gw liat bokap gw naik angkot haha seru..seru..

kira-kira bisa ga ya gw realisasiin?

Make peace with yourself..

writer / CC BY-NC-ND 3.0

for me this is another hard thing to do..years ago i'm used to feel insecure about who i'm..there's many times that i just feel pretending is much better than showing my real skin..and that thought stayed quite long in my brains..it's bad isn't it?

honestly this is still hard to be done for until now, but i tried to make peace with myself in every possible ways..accepting all as one complete parts, one integral parts..as who i am..as ME..
maybe there will be a low and difficult times in the future that gonna makes me feel insecure again but i hope at that times pretending is not my options to choose..

is not like that i'm pretending now..hell no..i'm pretty comfortable showing my own skin..it's just sometimes the thought of being comfortable with my own skin is not as easy as it may sound..
cheerio!

Breathtaking

as i promised to you guys (banyak kayanya ya yang baca haha) in my previous post, this are some of Annie Leibovitz's shoot Marie Antoinette for Vogue US..
if you want to check all the pictures that featured in the magazine just simply click here

I'm not a huge fans of kirsten dunst but i can tell you she looks stunning in the pictures..well, that's what you get when working with genius photographer, the best stylist and super creative make up artist and hair stylist..cheerio!

here's the behind-the-scenes video..enjoy!

this song's stayed in my brains lately..

is not like i'm feeling this song..but i just can't removed the beat off from my head and the plus is this song have a very strong lyrics..so, let's sing! x)

Madonna - Miles Away

I just woke up from a fuzzy dream
You never would believe those things that I have seen
I looked in the mirror and I saw your face
You looked right through me, you were miles away

All my dreams they fade away
I'll never be the same
If you could see me the way you see yourself
I can't pretend to be someone else

Always love me more, miles away
I hear it in your voice, miles away
You're not afraid to tell me, miles away
I guess we're at our best when miles away

So far away, so far away, so far away, so far away
So far away, so far away, so far away, so far away

When no one's around then I have you here
I begin to see the picture, it becomes so clear
You always have the biggest heart
When we're six thousand miles apart

Too much of no sound
Uncomfortable silence can be so loud
Those three words are never enough
When it's long distance love

I'm alright, don't be sorry, but it's true
When I'm gone, you'll realize
That I'm the best thing that happened to you